Hati Natal.

by Anonymous

Natal adalah kasih
Kasih yang diberikan oleh Yesus kepada kia
untuk dibagikan kepada orang lain
Kasih yang membuat kita semua istimewa bagi-Nya

Natal adalah sukacita
Sukacita yang kita terima lewat anugrah-Nya
Sukacita yang didambakan
yang membawa kita masuk ke tahun yang baru

Natal adalah damai sejahtera
Damai yang timbul karena mengenal Yesus
Jaminan yang tersedia karena menyerahkan hidup kita
ke dalam tangan kasih-Nya

Closed up smile.

Click..

Action: Street Seller.

Arrived at HoS.

Kenangan Terindah.

(Free translation: The most wonderful nostalgia)

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang t'lah hilang darimu
yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun aku mampu tuk mengenangmu
darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

Reff.
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang t'lah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah.

This song is quite popular, since it was released by an Indonesia Boysband, Samson. The melody is good on my ears, this song also sang when we had a session during the camping. I thought this is a love and romantic song, which describe two lovers who are in love. A partial of my thought was correct but in opposite way. I just realised it when I read the text thoroughly (read: how lost i was, where have I been ^_^) I hope whoever is going through a lowest level in their love life can move on, I know it is hard. Ask for help if we cannot bear it by ourselves, pray to God cause He always there for us.. He always keep his promise, will bring the best one for Us. God Bless.. There always a hope.

Anak Monyet..

Another Sunday school song, which is the fave of my niece, Anne..
Here is the lyrics:

Anak monyet di atas pohon
Anak cacing di dalam tanah
Anak burung di dalam sangkar
Anak Tuhan di dalam gereja

Panjang muka namanya kuda
Panjang hidung namanya gajah
Panjang tangan itu pencuri
Panjang sabar itu Anak Tuhan..

Applause to the author who have created this wonderful song.. :)

Sitting at the hotel lobby..

Today at 10.21 PM I am sitting at hotel lobby in order to connect my compi to the virtual world.. Saturday night hmmm.. Currently I am in Surabaya, like usual fieldwork. :) Yeah work .. work and work.. a little sad actually, because my parent are coming to visit us (sis and bro including me) in Jakarta. In the meanwhile I was assigned to serve clients in Surabaya, what a bad timing.. :(

Hmmm, haven't got enough with the Lebaran holiday actually.. Nevertheles at least I got fun during the holiday. I went to camping !! The whole of my life I never experience sleep at a camp. It was Lingga, two month ago out of the blue called me, and ask me whether I want to join a camping event during the Lebaran holiday. At that time I thought I didn't have any plan yet, and why not. Then the day came, Lingga and I joint with a bunch of people who had registered to the event, took a bus and went to Rancaupas, Ciwidey, Bandung. After a long long journey, 5 hours ride, finally we arrived. But it didn't look good to me.. we were only provided three camp for around 160 people, which means around 53 people in a camp.. I felt like a refugee though.. at that time felt a bit regret hehe.. bcause having used to stay at hotel hihi (while doing a fieldwork) compare to slept on the floor..

One night passed with a bit insomnia and cold brrr.. still two more night to go.. foods were ok.. the committe has been working hard to prepare it for 160 people.. appreciate it.. bravo committee.. Then started to have a lot of fun, meeting people, hiking to "Kawah Putih",.. Singing, Games and many.. many.. more.. I started to like the holiday.. Then I said to Lingga, I was not regret to attend this event, although I was complaining at the first place hehe.. sorry I didn't mean it.. Then the other two nights were passed quickly and came to the end of the camping day.. Before we went home we still have time to visit Situpatenggang Lake. Thank's God, I got a wonderful holiday.. :)

Mejeng di Kawah Putih.

go.. camping.. go..

Sunday School.

Although I have travelled a lot lately, I try to manage my time to bring my niece to sunday school. Hmm, I learnt some sunday school songs and found those songs are very interesting hehe.. Here is one of the lyrics:

KingKong badannya besar
tapi kakinya pendek
Lebih aneh binatang bebek
lehernya panjang kaki pendek

Alleluya.. Tuhan Maha Kuasa
Alleluya.. Tuhan Maha Kuasa

Tuhan membimbing langkah demi langkah.

(by Anonymous)

Jangan memandang kepada besarnya kebutuhan kita

Pandanglah kepada kebesaran-Nya

Keadaan kita seringkali menjadi penghalang

untuk melihat kemampuan Tuhan

Oleh karenanya jangan kita mengarahkan mata kita

kepada keadaan kita

Iblis senantiasa berusaha memanfaatkan keadaan kita

untuk mengalahkan kita dan menyalahkan firman Tuhan

Sesungguhnya kemenangan terletak pada kesetiaan kita

dalam memandang kebesaran Tuhan dan kemampuan-Nya

Ia telah berjanji untuk membimbing kita langkah demi langkah

Tidak sekaligus, namun ... langkah demi langkah ...

Dan setiap langkah, merupakan suatu mujizat!

"Prophet" by Frank again.

Lately felt really fed up with all of the routine, work and work and work... Then after the sunday school last week, I just passed the church library and got an idea to borrow a book, that can give my mind a relieve from thinking about my work stuff.. and flip around and ...ta..da.. I found another book from Frank, the title is "Prophet". I really enjoyed to read Frank's novels.. from the previous experience with "this present darkness" and "piercing the darkness". and I decided to borrow this book..

Last Sunday I've just finished the book. The story is a bit different with the first two it, this is more real, I think it's very common to happen in our life, politics, telling lie - covering truth, and ambition. This book is worth to be read. Please refer to this link for the story summary http://www.gnpcb.org/product/1581345267 Happy Readinggg !!!

A new look.

Felt a bit bored about the look of my blog. So I changed the template and now look like this. Ya just wanna refresh.. :) In fact I also want to restore the whole of my heart and energy, so I can left those awkward feeling behind and move on towards a better life..

Clara and Coala.

which one is cuter ?

My birthday gift.

The same as last year I didn't have chance to bother about my birthday, because I was on the way from my home town to Jakarta. Then yesterday I just received a bonus from office. Hmm, although my birthday was ten days ago, I felt like got a birthday gift hehe.. the office give away two millions rups voucher, which we can choose one of three options from panorama, carefour or sogo.

Apart from that I am very grateful to God for this year. I feel very blessed. One month before my birthday I've already got my present actually hehe.. the first one I was being double promoted, then got my performance bonus. The second one I passed the bloody CISA exam. During this time I think I can't ask for more, these two are already enough for me. Then yesterday got the third one hehe. And now somehow I began to worry, I remembered my first writing about "comfort vs growth". Wondering maybe I need to be aware of my life balance.. I've tried hard to maintain the work activities with my ministry in church. Hopefully I can maintain it well..

August 2006.

The same as last year, I spent most of my days in August at Chevron corporation, one of our firm audit client. I thought I have mentioned Chevron, which formerly named Caltex, is a oil mining company in Rumbai, Riau. The field work was enjoyable, all of my team member performed their work so efficient with a good quality of documentation. Two thumb up for all of you (Amel, Wisnu and Ferry). May be this year is the second year for all of us, we've already had the what in the firm we usually called "CAKE" about the client. This term is stand for cummulative auditing knowledge and experience. Moreover, from the client side, they also have improved a lot in term of how they control their business process, so most of their work have been documented properly. Hence, aside from work we still had time to having fun hehe.. hunting for durian, shopping in mals, watching movie and photo taking session. Please refer to pics below.. :)

I came back from Rumbai last week. What a shock when the first day I went to office at 5.40 am from home and arrive at Mampang at 6.20 am, but guess what I arrived at the office around 7.15 am. Had to spent around one hour to travel such 2-3 km distance.. The reason behind that is the government is building bus ways in all of the main streets in Jakarta. Mainly the purpose of the busway is to reduce traffic jam. Government is trying hard to improve the public transport, in order to persuade people to travel public transport, but I doubted it will succeed, let's hope.

Then I got another shocking news, my english instructor while I was preparing my EAP (english academic preparation) at IALF before departing to Australian commited a crime. He was arrested by Central Jakarta Police in the beginning of August. Actually this news has flown around in the alumni mailing list three weeks ago, but I never pay too much attention to this mailing list, and just known the new after a friend told me about this news. Just can't believed what I read in the news, I never thought this could happenned. He was such a respectable man, smart and I admited a bit sceptic, but unbelievable he could commit such crime - just don't want to mentioned what kind of crime. During my way home last night, I kept thinking life is always unpredictable, we can only see people's condition from the surface, but we never know what deep inside. People are correct, when they said the phrase, "don't judge the book by its cover".

Mess hall for lunch.

Chevron's main office.

Field work at Chevron.

I've Passed.

Finally the CISA exam result has come out. During the waiting period, it made me nuts. Because at the first time I thought it would come out only three weeks after the exam date, but I got it wrong. Then my friend told me that ISACA usually would announce the result aroung 6 weeks to 8 weeks. And yesterday, finally the result came out. I knew it because Amel (one of office collegues) called me, while I was at client's site in Surabaya. However, I could not checked my result due to I couldn't access to the Internet at client's site that made me more uneasy. Because I had been waiting for weeks, and when the result eventually come out I cannot check it. Until the lunch break I text my bro to check for me, I gave him my email id and password. During that period me, I was very nervous. Then after a few minutes, I got his reply and said I passed.. what a relieve.. Thank's God. This exam has turned me upside down, studied while working hmmm, I never think that I could do it. Once again, thank's God that He always strengthen me during the hard time, He always faithful to His children. And also thank you to Kees, my big boss, who is so dedicated to guide and teach us during the exam preparation. and big thank's too to family, friends and collegues who always encourage me to pass through this exam. No words can describe all of the support that pour at me.. Once again thank you all..

Systems & Process Assurance Team - New Poster

Just want to show off our team new poster. ^_^

Untitled.

Currently our office is entering a new financial year. Like every year by the end of each financial year management publish promotion list. Everybody at our department got promoted, though couple of them did not really satisfy with the rating result. Fyi, the rating would determine how much bonus you would get. Yeah, I believed management has considered deeply before they marked the rating. For my rating, I definitely don't have anything to complain. At the first place, I don't put too much expectation what could I get physically (read: salary), what I really care is what lessons I have learnt during the past one year. As I wrote one year ago, everything must have its time (Ecclesiates 3:11 "God has made everything fit beautifully in its appropriate time,but he has also placed ignorance in the human heartso that people cannot discover what God has ordained,from the beginning to the end of their lives"). I think if we are ready, He will give us what we really need.

In this month, there is another person resign our office, Reggie. Reggie left for pursuing higher education at York University, Toronto. During her last moment at our office she felt somewhat in between exciting and sad. Exciting, because she is going to go abroad and definitely will get new great experiences, and on the other hand sad because leaving us. During the past year we grew in one quite solid team. I also can feel that our team is a bit different compare to others that I had before. The people here are low profile and almost no boundary between us, even with our boss. However, I said to Reggie, she definitely has made a right decision. It is not everybody can experience higher education outside our home country, she will find many new things that she never had before. I am kind of miss my time when I was in Sydney.. double finger cross Reggie.

The World Greatest – R.Kelly

The following song was sang when we had update training last month. This song was introduced by Melvin. He mentioned that may be this song will help to boost our spirit a little bit if we are in a down condition. At that time I listened the music and lyrics and found this song is not bad, and sound nice to my ear. Yeah, this song at least tell us that we are at least something and may be we should proud of our selves whoever we are. However, we need to remember we are here and exist is because of HIM, only by HIM and through HIM we are save...

Lyrics:

I am a mountain, I am a tall tree, oh
I am a swift wind sweepin' the country
I am a river down in the valley,
oh I am a vision and I can see clearly

Refrain:
If anybody asks you who I am
Just stand up tall
Look 'em in the face and say

I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey, I made it I'm the world's greatest
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my back's against the ropes
I can feel it I'm the world's greatest

I am a giant, I am an eagle, oh
I am a lion, down in the jungle
I am a marchin' band, I am the people, oh
I am a helping hand, I am a hero

back to refrain

In the ring of life I'll reign love
And the world will notice a king/queen
When all is darkest, I'll shine a light
And use a success you'll find in me

back to refrain

Last shot.

Get wet, get fun.

Ready to launch.

Just Arrived.

More than anything.

Just want to share a lyric from one of the songs that we sang in the church anniversary celebration. The lyric is very simple, but very meaningful. Hope anybody who read it, will get the essence of the message too.

God loves people more than anything
God loves people more than anything
More than anything He wants to give
He'd rather die than let them go
God loves people more than anything

*connectedthinking.

Our team is trying to make a new poster, which reflected the whole team member for replacing current one. The theme for the poster is the same as our firm's motto i.e. "*connectedthinking". In order to do that, each of the members need to modify their pictures, so the pictures would really reflect the theme. I come out with the above picture. :)

Gado-gado.

is refer to a kind of Indonesian food, which consist of mixed vegetable and peanut sauce. Indonesian people usually use this phrase for refering something that heterogenous. I also use this phrase for my writing's title to refer to what I am going to write right now. There have been various things happenned the past few weeks.

• About two weeks ago once again Indonesia was hit by another catastrope. Several places in central java was shaken by a approx. 5.7 SR earth quake during 57 second. Based on the report from television news the death toll reached more than 5000 people. Just before the disaster, a lot of effort has been put to evacuate people from Merapi Mount eruption, but nature said different. What puzzle me was the timing of the disaster, it could be said just one or two days after the Ascensions day, the last two big catastrope i.e. Aceh Tsunami and Nias earthquake happened just one day after christmas and easter day respectively. Just trying to understand what message that God really want to put through for Indonesia or all of these just need to happen that's all.
• Last week was our church 61st anniversary. The committee planned to have a massive youth choralle which would be consist of 250 young people from several our church branches, but surprise there were almost 350 people turned up, including me. We only had twice combined practice including the one right before the anniversary celebration service. It was really amazing we really sang well during the service. The congregation was really astonished with the performance, all of us could feel the spirit of the theme this year "Shine for Jesus". I hope each of us could really understand the meaning of the theme, hence we can apply it to our every day life. For details of the event and pictures please refer to the folowing link http://youth-gky.blogspot.com/2006/06/kesan-dari-bawah-podium.html
• Finally, last saturday I attended the CISA exam. During the past six months I tried very hard to manage my time for study. It was really hard to study while working full time, especially if the job nature such auditing most of the time is very time consuming. Actually the preparation effort was not only come from me and other candidates, but also our Boss, Kees, who once a week conducted CISA review class during the past six months. Honestly, I did not want to let him down, because he has already sacrificed his out of office hour for only preparing us to pass the exam. I am very grateful that have a great boss like Him. Then about the exam result would come out about three weeks after the exam day, it would be confirmed by email. At the present I don't want to speculate about my exam outcome, I just only want to tell myself that I have put as many efforts that I could for passing the exam, let God do the rest.
• Time really goes so fast now we are in the mid of year 2006, I just felt that we just celebrate the new year yesterday. The first lesson that I learnt the past six months was that acceptance for something that we can't achieve. Sometimes we need to lay back a bit to think about the essence of our failure and disappoinment, there maybe a way for our future improvement. Another thing is commitment for ministry. The past one year I have struggled to commit for a ministry in church. I afraid that I can't fulfil my ministry responsibility because of my time consuming job. After a long contemplating, I think I should try, coz we don't know we can and can't do it if we do not try. Then since last week I registered myself as a sunday school teacher assistant. I hope this ministry would be useful for myself in the future.

Ok, that's all for now. Wanna to go home to watch football match hehe.. FIFA World Cup.

Cramming.

Gosh.. the time goes so fast. The exam day is coming closer and closer. Have taken one week annual leave to revisit the whole material again, but I start to forget some of the details, uh so frustated. Next week is the only chance for catch up and prepare, hopefully all of my effort will bring a good outcome.

An ordinary story in life.

Last saturday was a farewell bbq for my collegues Johan and Yenny. Both of them decided to move to PwC Singapore. It is maybe a usual event in our daily life, where there is a meeting, there will be a farewell. In this condition our office definitely lose two talented staff, but this may be a new journey, a new chapter for both Yenny and Johan.

Our farewell party begun with having bbq like last time and continue with watching a debut of "SPA movie", which created by Wisnu. The movie was very touching, it reminded us with the togetherness that we had since we joint the team, messages from staff for Both Yenny and Johan and vice versa. The party was ended by a speech from our leader, Kees. I was impressed by his speech, which basically means people's live is moving forward, maybe sometimes we are doubt to go or not go, indeed we never know if we don't try. Then lastly we took our last picture. Good Luck and Bon Voyage for Johan and Yenny, till we meet again, hehe Singapore just one and hour flight from Jakarta.. :)

Outing committee.

Back to the real world.

Exhausted Soldiers.

Ready to fight.

Arrived at Gunung Putri

Updates.

• First of all just want to say "happy easter", may Jesus resurrection raise up a new spirit for us to share love with others.

• Just had a retret with a group who call themselves as "Sant'Egidio" Community. This is one of a catholic church community, which started by a group of students in 1968, Roma. The mission of this group is to help those, who are poor and unfortunate. There have been a lot of actvities that initiated by this group, please refer to http://www.santegidio.org. In Indonesia this group was begun about 12 years ago. One of my friend joint this group and have been very inspired to make the world better. Overall I quite impressed with the mission and what have been done by this group of people. Maybe I will join them whenever I have a spare time.

• Yenny is back. I can understand with the struggle she go through, but thank's God she is getting better. However, I heard that she is going to resign from our office for several reason. I just can wish all the best for her decision.

BBQ together.

Pinky.

Girls group.

Novels by Frank.

Bro bought couple of novels, which is written by Frank E. Peretti, i.e This present of darkness and Piercing the darkness. At the beginning I was not too interested to read these books. I thought these novels would be quite similar with other ordinary thriller stories. But then, I felt bored nothing to do at that moment, I saw the books laid at the TV desk. I reached one of them and started to read... one page has passed... nothing special... until several pages, the real content of the book was introduced slowly but sure.. then I couldn't stop.. felt curious what happened next with the story... After finished with the first one, then I continued to read another one. Both of them are really great, and so real and easy to follow. Mainly these books telling about the spiritual warfare around our real life.. I was pulled into a spiritual world and was witnessing the warfare going on, which something that I never aware of. Regardless whether the story is true or not, these books gave a broad and clear picture about the spiritual realm, and how the angels do their works. I really recommend others to read these books, you'll never regret it. I bet.

Reference:

http://www.booksamillion.com/ncom/books?AID=32499&PID=2477&isbn=1581342144

Think About His Love

Think about His love
Think about His goodness
Think about His grace
That's brought us through.

For as high as the heavens above
So great is the measure of our Father's love
Great is the measure of our Father's love.

How could I forget His love?
How could I forget His mercy?
He satisfies, He satisfies,
He satisfies my desires.
Great is the measure of our Father's love.

Comment:
This morning when I drove to my office, as ussual I turned on the radio, then this song came out from the radio speaker. This song has brought back my concentration to the road, as my mind worked hard thinking about many many things, struggles, human pathetic life. This song has reminded me, for whatever our condition, we still have His love. His love will comfort us whenever we are down. Always think about His love.

Chaos or Tragedy ?

The past few weeks has passed with a bit plain, until about two weeks ago one of my best friend (Mega) from campus sent me a sms at midnight said that an accident killed my friend (John) on the way he went home from his office. I just can't believed it that he has passed away, because just one hour before the accidence he just posted an email to our alumni miling list. I have known him since I was in the third semester of my bachelor degree. We worked together as teaching assistant for a software laboratory at our campus. I also know his fiancee (yenny) well, because we work at the same office. John was known as a such caring, nice and smart person. I can't imagine how shock and sad his family, friends and fiancee when they heard this bad news.

Just a few days ago before the accident, I was thinking that Yenny has a perfect life. I envied her. She is smart, has a good career, has a great fiancee, in short she has everything that a girl dream on. They have built relationship for five years, have bought a house mortgage, lease a car and plan to get married by June this year. All of these has gone when this accidence happened. When I received the news, I asked in my heart over and over why this happened especially when everything seems so perfect? Don't God has eyes or heart in ruling this world. I know God has his own purpose and objective when allowing something happened to us, this maybe go beyond our thought and mind.

Until now Yenny is still absence for work. I can understand how her feeling is, this accidence has given a big grief into her life history. I really eager to ease a litle of her pain but don't know how to do it. I don't have courage to call or even sms her, afraid if my call or sms can remind her to John. I just can pray that God can make her understand and strength after this tragedy.

Aside from the grief and sadness of this tragedy, this accident also reminded me that we, humans are so small and powerless. Our everything can disappear in just a second. I asked myself am I ready if that happen to me? Oh Lord, please give us Your Strength. Amin.

Trust and obey

(c) words: Rev. John Henry Sammis
Proverbs 16:20

When we walk with the Lord
In the light of his word
What a glory he sheds on our way
While we do his good will
He abides with us still
And with all who will trust and obey

Chorus

Trust and obey
For there's no other way
To be joyful in Jesus
Than to trust and obey
Trust and obey
For there's no other way
To be joyful in Jesus
Than trust and obey

Not a burden we bear
Not a sorrow we share
But our toil he does richly repay
Not a grief nor a loss
Not a frown nor a cross
But is blest if we trust and obey

Chorus
But we never can prove
The delights of his love
Until all on the altar we lay
For the favours he shows
And the joy he bestows
Are for them who will trust and obey

Chorus

Then in fellowship sweet
We will sit at his feet
We'll walk by his side in the way
What he says we will do
Where he sends we will go
Never fear, only trust and obey

Chorus

Lunch together. 

Smile.. 

at tangkuban perahu. 

Nana and clara on the way to Ciater 

Clara in strawberry suit 

The first month in 2006.

Just came back from field work in Rumbai, Pekan Baru. This was just to continue the audit workfrom mid year which is to perform SoX update testing for Caltex, oil mining company. The visit this time was quite enjoyable although felt a bit hard in the beginning. It was due to I need to perform extra work which left behind by a resigned collegue. The client considerably cooperative hence we could finish the work a little bit quicker than the schedule. Besides we have more time to enjoy the facilities surrounding the camp site such as bowling, swimming pool, sate padang and went around Pekan Baru town looking for durian, the favourite fruit hehe.. As a result I gained one kg weight. O my.. need to control my appetite.. :P

Currently, have been assigned to Petrochina, to perform final review. This is a very tough client. Just hope the conflicts can be resolved quickly. Will have a tough meeting today..

Have been registered for CISA exam on 10 June. Just tried to start the study but it is really hard though. Because most of my time spent on work, so need to study over time.. I hope my preparation is sufficient for me to pass the exam. Trust the Lord, He will never let us down.

A New year.

Unaware that I have passed one year in Jakarta. During this year I have gone through many things, bad and good, struggles and excitements. These events have taught me a lot and gave me more understanding about how to live my life. Just want to thank's God about that. Although all of them were very hard at the beginning, finally the outcome never disappointed me.

Like at the first time, I was struggling looking for job and by the time God gave the best to me. Although at the beginning I was a bit dissapointed because I had to start from the initial level. However, after a few month I was promoted. Maybe I don't need to re-tell them one by one because it will not be counted. I amazed with God's "expertise" in making a plan (Rome 8:28). I realised that the struggle will continue as long as we still alive.