Friday, October 26, 2007

Mengenal-Mu. (To know You, God)

Bila kubuka mataku,
dan lihat wajah-Mu...
kuterkagum...

Bila kulihat hidupku,
dan karya tangan-Mu...
kutersanjung....

Karna semua yang baik dalam hidupku..
itulah karya-Mu...
Kau bri kesempatan yang baru...

Reff :
Dan ku ingin mengenal-Mu Tuhan...
lebih dalam dari smua yang ku kenal...
Tiada kasih yang melebihi-Mu...
ku ada untuk menjadi penyembah-Mu....

Comment:
That was the song, which sang during our retreat, I was very touch with this song. Somehow made me think how well have I known God and realised have been very selfish all of the time.. always thinking about me, me and me.. what if I.. how about if I.. hardly think what God's plan for me. Whether what I've done is according to God's will.. Fortunate, I've realised and need to put thing into perspective.

Friday, September 21, 2007

Tea Walk group.

Monday, September 03, 2007

All about August.

Hmm actually nothing is special in August.. except yeah, my birthday in August.. and office busy season started in August.. just about it. However, I felt very blessed for this year August. Lately felt a bit disoriented, in the surface it seems everything are fine, my routine, activities hmm but just felt a bit lost.. Regardless the feeling, I think God knows what I need. I was introduced to a member of IES (International English Service), ibu Setiawati, who invited me to join "Connecting the Dots" seminar. The seminar is about to connect our past (bad and good) to our present condition. So as a pre-work assignment, we were required to list down all of the past event that have impact to our life at that time. Then during the seminar, a long with the talk we did an exersice to make a timeline through these listed event. At the end, we can see our draft autobiography, and somehow realised that all of the bad or good things happened actually for our own good.. yeah "God is good, all the time", said Don Moen. This seminar has drawn me back to focus.


As I mentioned before, we entered busy season since August. Although it's just started, I've felt so weary hehe.. then out of the blue, one of my friend's friend, Herlina asked me to join a tea walk event. Initially I was not so interested, but I agreed to go eventually.. hmm that was nice, meeting some new friends, experiencing the tea field and nature.. yeah nice... :)

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Who Am I ?

This song was sang during the "Connecting the dots" Seminar, which I just attended these two days. I like this song once it was sang, it described the truth about us. Later will share about what the seminar all about.. Feel so amazed, inspired and blessed. Thank's to Ibu Setiawati who invited me to join the seminar.

Artist: Casting Crowns
Album : Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out throught the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

SPA Outing 2007 Part II - Bali


Romans 8:28.

I was cleaning up my inbox, and found a nice article. I received this email November 19, 2003 from my brother. I think although the story happened for long time ago, it is still relevant to share the story. Here it is:

As you read this, remember Romans 8: 28.. "And we know that in ALL things God works for the good of those who love Him and who are called according to His purpose." A man from Norfolk, VA called a local radio station to share this on Sep 11th, 2003. His Name was Robert Matthews. These are his words: "A few weeks before Sept 11th, my wife and I found out we were going to have our first child. She planned a trip out to California to visit her sister. On our way to the airport, we prayed that God would grant my wife a safe trip and be with her. Shortly after I said 'amen' we both heard a loud pop and the car shook violently. We had blown out a tire. I replaced the tireas quickly as I could, but we still missed her flight. Both very upset, we drove home. I received a call from my father who was retired FDNY. He asked what my wife's flight number was, but explained that we missed the flight. My father informed me that her flight was the one that crashed into the southern tower. I was too shocked to speak. My father also had more news for me; he was going to help. 'This is not something I can just sit by for, I have to do something.' I was concerned for his safety, of course, but more because he had never given his life to Christ. After a brief debate, I knew his mind was made up. Before he got off of The phone, he said, 'take good care of my grandchild.' Those were the last words I ever heard my father say; he died while helping in the rescue effort. My joy that my prayer of safety for my wife had been answered quickly became anger. Anger at God, at my father, and at myself. I had gone for nearly 2 years blaming God for taking my father away. My son would never know his grandfather, my father had never accepted Christ, and never got to say goodbye.

Then something happened. About 2 months ago, I was sitting at home with my wife and my son, when there was a knock on the door. I looked at my wife, but I could tell she wasn't expecting anyone. I opened the door to a couple with a small child. The man looked at me and asked if my father's name was Jake Matthews. I told him it was. He quickly grabbed my hand and said, 'I never got the chance to meet your father, but it is an honor to meet his son.' He explained to me that his wife had worked in the World Trade Center and had been caught inside after the attack. She was pregnant and had been caught under debris. He then explained that my father had been the one to find his wife and free her. My eyes welled up with tears as I thought of my father giving his life for people like this. He then said, 'there is something else you need to know.' his wife then told me that as my father worked to free her, she talked to him and lead him to Christ. I began sobbing at the news. Now I know that when I get to heaven, my father will be standing beside Jesus to welcome me, and that this family would be able to thank him themselves." When their baby boy was born, they named him Jacob Matthew in honor of the man who gave his life so mother and baby could live. This story should help us to realize two things: First, that though it has been two years since the attacks, we should never let it become a mere tragic memory. And second, but most important, God is always in control. We may not see the reason behind things, and we may never know this side of heaven, but God is ALWAYS in control.

What a such encouraging story...

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Old McDonald has a farm.

About two weeks ago, with a bunch of sunday school students we visited dairy farm. Having our first experience to milking a cow.. what a fun experience mhoooo hehehe... see how is the milk being processed to variety of dairy product..

Hmmm an interesting place to get away...

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Office - End of financial year.

I have passed another end of financial year of the firm. The time passed so fast, I have been in the firm for about two and half years now. Here are some updates of some events that I've been through inside and outside the firm:
  • Then Firm's usual annual tradition is the performance result or promotion announcement. This year would be another blessing year, I am promoted as an Assistance Manager. Certainly there will be a significant salary increase, and abundance work would also follow. I tried to encourage myself to contribute as best as I can, and may His name glorify through my career. Sometimes career issue make me worry about how to manage a life balance.
  • I was confirmed at the beginning of this month. In addition I have passed the Sunday School teacher lessons and officially allow to teach Sunday School students.. So far so good with the role, I manage to prepare all the stuff right before Sunday. Thank's to the Internet, which help me a lot in providing the material. However, there are still many things that need to improve.
  • Our team will have an outing by the end of next month. We plan to go to Bali island. Hmm, have been six years since my last visit, I hope will get some fresh air and energy before the high season come. Looking forward for the outing.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Does it matter?

Last night we have a small chat within the office with other two collegues. The topic was brought up because of Andi was packing his bag and ready to go home when I passed by his desk. He's just bought some DVDs one of the title is "The tomb of Jesus". Then I asked him why did he choose the title ? Andi answered that because he read a lot of discussion re. this topic in the milis which he join. One of the discussion is whether Jesus's married and have his own family. Then another collegue - Melvin joint in the conversation said, that He would not bother about the life of Jesus, whether He was married or not with Mary Magdalene.. What does matter is the teaching of Jesus.. Hmm, I was disagree with Melvin. In my opinion all of part of Jesus life is really matter, which prove that He is GOD. However, yesterday I didn't make any arguments to encounter Melvin's statement. One of the reason maybe I am still lack of knowledge about this..

So feel free to put any comment on this topic.. Maybe I can get some inputs.

Samalona Island.


Ready to depart to ...

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Devil's Trick.

Last night I went home on time, this is quite unusual hehe, since I always stayed at the office at least until 7.00 PM. One reason is I want to avoid the traffic jam, so it is better do something else in the office rather than sit in the car doing nothing. I have planned to visit my former office to obtain signature from my former employer for CISA certification application then attended the prayer session in the church.

Last night talk is about Matthew 4:1-11. According to the preacher these verse contain of two parts i.e. how devil try to persuade man become a sinner and how Jesus faced the temptation without being a sinner. For this session the preacher talked about the part one of these verses "How devil try to persuade man become a sinner".

First we looked at Mat 4:2-3 "After fasting forty days and forty nights, he was hungry. The tempter came to him and said. If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become bread." He explained Devil utilise our needs to tempt us. Other example for this case is Esau because he was hungry, he was willing to trade his birth rights to Jacob. He didn't think about the cause of his decision, he just thought about the fulfilment of his needs. We are human sometimes like that, so we are willing to do anything include sinned action to fulfil our needs.

Second Mat 4:5-6 "Then the devil took him to the holy city and had him stand on the highest point of the temple. "If you are the Son of God," he said, "throw yourself down. For it is written: "He will command his angels concerning you, and they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone." The preacher further explained that Devil use our knowledge of God's word to tempt us. Some people sometimes only quote a little part of the bible to make his action seems true. Hence, beware that we need to carefully interpret God's words.. beside the meaning we also need to know the context of the verses and how it is applied. Don't misuse it otherwise Devil will use it against us.

Third Mat 4:8-9 "Again, the devil took him to a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world and their splendor. "All this I will give you," he said, "if you will bow down and worship". Devil use our focus to tempt us. One example of this is David. He focussed on his desire to a beautiful woman, which drawn him to commit murder and adultery.

I was made aware by by these explanation.. I hope this could equipped me more in the future.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Reading books.

That is my niece, Clara's answer if everyone asked her about her hobby. She is only two years old, she has showed her interest to books. Although she cannot read, she know the content of every single of her books.. She owns almost a hundred books at home and continue to be added. Reading books is also what I have been doing since a few months ago, started to fill my sparetime with this hobby. I have read different kind of genres. Here they are:
  • Betrayal by Randall Arthur. This book is a religious novel like Frank's. Different with Frank's story, this book talk about pattern of betrayal that often happens in the body of Christ or church community. Quite dramatical and worth to read.
  • Undomestic goddess & Can you keep a secret. Both of them are chick lits, which written by Sophie Kinsela. These two books are good for light reading, relax and quite entertain. These books are good choices for your spare time.
  • The curious incident of the dog in the night time by Mark Haddon. I found this book is quite different in the term of the story telling. The story is about a 15th years old kids, Christopher, with a kind of autism, found his neighbour's dog killed by a garden fork. He is encouraged by his teacher, to write abook about his investigation in finding the murder of the dog. According to book review in amazon - "This is the sort of book that could turn condescending, or exploitative, or overly sentimental, or grossly tasteless very easily, but Haddon navigates those dangers with a sureness of touch that is extremely rare among first-time novelists". Worth to read, if you want to taste a different type of reading.
  • Digital Fortress by Dan Brown. I just started to read this book. I found Dan Brown is good at making fiction. Making connection among facts, which in fact actually they do not have any connections.. hehehe.. quite confusing... that's why his controversial book DAVINCI CODE is called novel, not true.

yeah, that's all for now. Looking forward to learn crafting for my sunday school session. Happy reading.

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

SPA outing 2007 Part I

Just about two weeks ago, as our group tradition we conducted an outing for the first time in year 2007. The season started to lowered a bit. Just an opportunity to bound together and built up a solid team work. Every body have fun, can't wait for the next outing..

Closed up pose.


Lage Mejeng.


SPA team.


Outing Site.


Monday, March 12, 2007

Move on!

Have been struggled to let go a "thing" that I obsessed about, although I knew it was the will of God I couldn't make it mine. I meant actually I could sense God's answer was very clear, but I was so stubborn to think there maybe a chance to pursue it. Until the end of last month ...

Melvin (an office collegue) and I were very lucky, being chosen by the firm to attend a T3 (training the trainers) for BPF (Business Process Fundamental) course by Global Learning and education team in Hongkong. The purpose of the training is to communicate all of the course material to the participants, which then the participants can prepare their own course in their home countries. I met other participants from several of our region offices, which was very interesting. I experienced this before, when I attended SPA academy one and half year ago in Bangkok. However, this training was slightly different with the former one. The participants in this course were much lesser than the SPA academy's participants, which gave more chance to know others better.

Besides training, We had chances to visit some interesting place in Hongkong such as Disney's land and several shopping places like Mongkok, Wanchai and Causeway bay. I spent some hundreds dollar shopping for gift and myself. Overall was very enjoyable. This visit has opened my eyes, that this world still has many things that need to be explored. I should not distress myself with my "failure obsession". Unbelievable I have been sadden with it for more than one year, what a waste of time. I was so stubborn and hard hearted to obey God's guidance. I realised that I should move on and don't stuck myself with my struggle. I hope this is my turning point to change and have more reliance on God rather than rely on my own strength and understanding.

BPF T3 Participants & Instructors.

Training..

Met a new buddy.

Arrived at Disneyland.

Causeway Bay, HK.

Friday, February 23, 2007

Renungan mengenai sangkar burung.

I got this from a milist, maybe some of you have read it before. However, I thought it is nice for a reminder. Hope you get the essence of the stor-e... Here it goes...

Suatu masa, ada seorang pria bernama George Thomas, seorang pastur di sebuah kota kecil di New England. Pada suatu Minggu pagi, hari Paskah, ia tiba di gereja dengan membawa sangkar burung yg sudah karatan dan penyok-penyok, dan meletakannya di altar. Orang-orang pada keheranan dan, seolah-olah menangkap rasa penasaran orang-orang, Pastur Thomas mulai bicara...."

Saya sedang berjalan-jalan sekeliling kota kemarindan melihat seorang anak laki-laki berjalan mendekati saya sambilmengayun-ayunkan sangkar burung ini. Di dasar sangkar ada tiga burung kecil dan liar,menggigil karena kedinginan dan ketakutan. Saya stop anak laki-laki itu dan saya tanyakan,"Ada apa di sangkar itu, nak ?" "Hanya beberapa burung biasa" jawabnya. "Apa yg akan kau lakukan pada mereka ?" tanya saya. "Bawa pulang ke rumah dan menggoda mereka," jawabnya. "Saya akan menggoda mereka dan mencabuti bulu-bulu mereka supaya mereka saling berkelahi. Saya pasti akan menikmati saat itu". "Tapi kamu nanti akan jadi bosan dengan burung-burung itu cepat atau lambat. Lantas apa yang akan kamu kerjakan ?" "Oh, saya kan punya beberapa kucing," kata anak laki-laki itu". Mereka senang burung. Saya akan berikan burung-burung ini pada kucing-Kucing itu". Pastur terdiam untuk beberapa saat. "Berapa yang kamu inginkan untuk burung-burung itu, nak ?" "Huh? Mengapa, Anda tidak mungkin menginginkan burung-burung inikan, Pak. Mereka hanyalah burung biasa. Mereka tidak bisa bersiul merdu. Mereka bahkan tidak menarik !" "Berapa ?" Tanya pastur lagi. Si anak laki-laki itu mengukur kemampuan si pastur dan menilai si pastur mungkin gila, dan menjawab, "$10?" Pastur mengambil dari kantungnya dan mengeluarkan selembar uang kertas sepuluh dollar. Ia taruh di tangan anak laki-laki itu! Dalam sekejap, anak laki-laki itu pun menghilang.Si pastur memungut sangkar tersebut dan dengan lembut membawanya Ke ujung gang dimana ada sebuah pohon dan tempat yang berumput. Sambil meletakkan sangkar itu, ia membuka pintunya, dan dengan mengetuk jeruji sangkar pelan-pelan membujuk burung-burung itu keluar. Dan, itu tadi menjelaskan mengapa sangkar burung yang kosong ini di atas altar ini, lalu pastur mulai menceritakan cerita ini.

Suatu hari Iblis dan TUHAN sedang bercakap-cakap. Iblis baru saja datang dari Taman Firdaus, dan ia nampak rakus dan sedang membual. "Ya, tuan, saya baru saja melihat dunia penuh dengan orang-orang di bawah sana. Saya pasang perangkap, gunakan umpan yang saya tahu pasti mereka tak akan bisa menolak. Kenalah mereka semua!""Apa yg akan kau lakukan terhadap mereka ?" tanya TUHAN. Iblis menjawab, "Oh, saya akan bersenang-senang! Saya akan ajarkan mereka bagaimana kawin dan cerai, bagaimana saling membenci dan menganiaya satu sama lain, bagaimana saling minum-minum dan merokok dan menghujat. Saya akan ajarkan mereka bagaimana membuat senjata dan bom dan saling membunuh satu sama lain. Saya akan benar-benar senang!" "Dan apa yang akan kau lakukan terhadap mereka setelah engkau selesai dengan itu semua ?" tanya TUHAN. "Oh, saya akan bunuh mereka," Iblis menatap dengan bangga. "Berapa yang kau inginkan untuk mereka ?" tanya TUHAN. "Oh, kau tidak mungkin menginginkan orang-orang itu. Mereka tidaklah baik. Mengapa, kau ambil mereka dan mereka hanya akan membencimu. Mereka akan meludahimu, menghujatmu dan membunuhmu. Kau tidak mau orang-orang ini!" "Berapa ? Ia bertanya lagi. Iblis menatap TUHAN danmenyeringai, "Semua darah, airmata, dan jiwamu". TUHAN berkata, "Baiklah !" Lalu Ia membayar harganya, dengan darah, airmata dan jiwaNYA Pastur memungut sangkar tersebut. Ia membuka pintunya dan ia melangkah dari mimbar.

John 10:11 "I (Jesus) am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Where after death?

During the year end holiday, I visited my friend, Yenny, in Singapore. Yenny is the one who lost her fiance in an accident last year. Initially my visit purpose are to refresh/clean up my mind from a messy thought and get away from my routine. My visit was only three days, because I thought it's enough time to explore for a small country like Singapore, moreover I've been there before.

On the first day it was enjoyable, then come to a point that where Both Yenny and I sat at a restaurant having lunch, just she and me. After some conversation, finally she admitted that sometimes she still couldn't let go the incident.. and wonder where does he go to ? heaven or the opposite. She told me that she've already asked some of her friends (catholic believe), all of them answered her with don't know answer. (note: both yenny and her ex are budhist). This question was struck me.. and a bit confuse to answer her. I came to a dillema, what should I say.. If I answered that I don't know either, it means I failed to testify I as a Christian.. but if I answered going to hell, then it makes her sad, and felt Christianity is unfair, because in her perspective her fiance never did anything wrong that deserve him for going to hell. Instead of giving a direct answer, I finally explained her about what is Christian all about ? Why Jesus came to the world and died on the cross.. and People does not judge by deeds but by faith to Jesus Christ.. I don't know whether she understood what I was talking about, and just pray in my heart that she could digest my explanantion. At the end of the conversation, I said, that I am going to ask my pastor in the church for giving a direct answer, which I actually knew the answer. Then before I came back from Singapore, I had a chance to pray with her.. Initially she seemed hesitate to pray with me, because she don't know how to pray. Then I persuaded her that she didn't need a training or course in order to pray..

When I had come back, I consulted with an evangelist in our church, her statement slapped me, said I shouldn't doubt to give an answer for Yenny's question, if that is the truth.. the statement made me think, that I was only given a simple question, but failed to answer it.. how about if I was in a harder situation where I have to choose between my faith or career, partner or even die. This experience had give me a warning that I had to grow stronger not lukewarm in my faith.

Rev 3:16 - "So because you are luke warm - neither hot nor cold - I am about to spit you out of my mouth"

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Our office.

Monday, January 22, 2007

In an aquarium.

Friday, January 19, 2007

Everything can change, but He always stay the same.

No body in this world can stop the time.. Unnotedly it is a new year again, we have reached the last quarter of the decade. Sometimes feel so scared, what have I done ? Is it made Him glad? One thing that makes me relief that, although everything in this world change and become worse, but Our Lord. He would not change, He still the Lord that loves us, care about us.. The matter is just us, do we have a faith in Him ? do we still believe in Him ? or we leave Him just because He hasn't answered our prayer ? or we upset and angry because everything happen out of our plans. Maybe we are just human, does not understand His Plan. But one thing, we should believe He has a perfect plan for us, in a perfect time. Happy New year... (although a bit too late hehe..)

Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future