Chaos or Tragedy ?

The past few weeks has passed with a bit plain, until about two weeks ago one of my best friend (Mega) from campus sent me a sms at midnight said that an accident killed my friend (John) on the way he went home from his office. I just can't believed it that he has passed away, because just one hour before the accidence he just posted an email to our alumni miling list. I have known him since I was in the third semester of my bachelor degree. We worked together as teaching assistant for a software laboratory at our campus. I also know his fiancee (yenny) well, because we work at the same office. John was known as a such caring, nice and smart person. I can't imagine how shock and sad his family, friends and fiancee when they heard this bad news.

Just a few days ago before the accident, I was thinking that Yenny has a perfect life. I envied her. She is smart, has a good career, has a great fiancee, in short she has everything that a girl dream on. They have built relationship for five years, have bought a house mortgage, lease a car and plan to get married by June this year. All of these has gone when this accidence happened. When I received the news, I asked in my heart over and over why this happened especially when everything seems so perfect? Don't God has eyes or heart in ruling this world. I know God has his own purpose and objective when allowing something happened to us, this maybe go beyond our thought and mind.

Until now Yenny is still absence for work. I can understand how her feeling is, this accidence has given a big grief into her life history. I really eager to ease a litle of her pain but don't know how to do it. I don't have courage to call or even sms her, afraid if my call or sms can remind her to John. I just can pray that God can make her understand and strength after this tragedy.

Aside from the grief and sadness of this tragedy, this accident also reminded me that we, humans are so small and powerless. Our everything can disappear in just a second. I asked myself am I ready if that happen to me? Oh Lord, please give us Your Strength. Amin.