To begin the year.

After having a ten days of year end holiday, I started to come to my office on 2nd January. That morning began with a hard rain, and when I woke up I did not feel like to work. With a very low motivation I took a bath and prepared to begin my working days. I took all of my stuff and put them in my car. With a full confident I did not do a final check then drove to the office. I arrived at 6.40. I thought it was still early, I had my breakfast and took an easy sleep for awhile. At 7.40 when I want to go upstairs and just realised I forgot to bring my laptop. Oh my.. how could I work without it. I decided to drive back home to take my laptop. I ended up with spending almost three hours back and forth to the office, caught in a bad traffic jam because it was a rainy day. Losing my energy to work normally, fed up with my carelessness. Start wondering it was a bad start for beginning of a year.

Regardless the bad start, I believed our life pathway is not determined by a good sign or bad sign. It is definitely depend on God. These days since the advent period, I was stroke by a verse (Romans 8:28) repetititvely. These past year I have been struggling with my faith. It seems that everything happened in my life was stagnant, does not make any progress at all. Yeah maybe people see on the surface that I quite succeed with my career, but the spiritual inside of me is falling down slowly. At a point, sometimes I was wondering, can I still trust God? or I have to stand up by my own feet? Then in one of the year end testimonial sessions a congregation member shared about his past until he found the Lord and brought him become an evangelist. He closed with the Romans 8:28 verse. That remind me with a long time ago sermon. A preacher illustrated that he was waiting in the airport to pick up one of his family member. The plane actually supposed has been arrived but he heard an announcement saying that the plane was delayed for two hours because of some technical issues. He waited and waited.. seems that the plane was not make any progress to arrive, but actually the airline officers were making effort to reach the destination. Finally after two hours past, the plane arrived and he met with the family member. God's work sometimes is like that he said. On the surface it seems nothing is happening, but in fact He is in progress getting it done. We just need to do our part and put our faith on Him.

With the reminder, my resolution for year 2008 may I put my faith more in HIM, trust HIM and act as I have received whatever I have asked for. Be joyfull in God in whatever circumstances.

Romans 10:17 "Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word of Christ."