Move on!

Have been struggled to let go a "thing" that I obsessed about, although I knew it was the will of God I couldn't make it mine. I meant actually I could sense God's answer was very clear, but I was so stubborn to think there maybe a chance to pursue it. Until the end of last month ...

Melvin (an office collegue) and I were very lucky, being chosen by the firm to attend a T3 (training the trainers) for BPF (Business Process Fundamental) course by Global Learning and education team in Hongkong. The purpose of the training is to communicate all of the course material to the participants, which then the participants can prepare their own course in their home countries. I met other participants from several of our region offices, which was very interesting. I experienced this before, when I attended SPA academy one and half year ago in Bangkok. However, this training was slightly different with the former one. The participants in this course were much lesser than the SPA academy's participants, which gave more chance to know others better.

Besides training, We had chances to visit some interesting place in Hongkong such as Disney's land and several shopping places like Mongkok, Wanchai and Causeway bay. I spent some hundreds dollar shopping for gift and myself. Overall was very enjoyable. This visit has opened my eyes, that this world still has many things that need to be explored. I should not distress myself with my "failure obsession". Unbelievable I have been sadden with it for more than one year, what a waste of time. I was so stubborn and hard hearted to obey God's guidance. I realised that I should move on and don't stuck myself with my struggle. I hope this is my turning point to change and have more reliance on God rather than rely on my own strength and understanding.

BPF T3 Participants & Instructors.

Training..

Met a new buddy.

Arrived at Disneyland.

Causeway Bay, HK.

Renungan mengenai sangkar burung.

I got this from a milist, maybe some of you have read it before. However, I thought it is nice for a reminder. Hope you get the essence of the stor-e... Here it goes...

Suatu masa, ada seorang pria bernama George Thomas, seorang pastur di sebuah kota kecil di New England. Pada suatu Minggu pagi, hari Paskah, ia tiba di gereja dengan membawa sangkar burung yg sudah karatan dan penyok-penyok, dan meletakannya di altar. Orang-orang pada keheranan dan, seolah-olah menangkap rasa penasaran orang-orang, Pastur Thomas mulai bicara...."

Saya sedang berjalan-jalan sekeliling kota kemarindan melihat seorang anak laki-laki berjalan mendekati saya sambilmengayun-ayunkan sangkar burung ini. Di dasar sangkar ada tiga burung kecil dan liar,menggigil karena kedinginan dan ketakutan. Saya stop anak laki-laki itu dan saya tanyakan,"Ada apa di sangkar itu, nak ?" "Hanya beberapa burung biasa" jawabnya. "Apa yg akan kau lakukan pada mereka ?" tanya saya. "Bawa pulang ke rumah dan menggoda mereka," jawabnya. "Saya akan menggoda mereka dan mencabuti bulu-bulu mereka supaya mereka saling berkelahi. Saya pasti akan menikmati saat itu". "Tapi kamu nanti akan jadi bosan dengan burung-burung itu cepat atau lambat. Lantas apa yang akan kamu kerjakan ?" "Oh, saya kan punya beberapa kucing," kata anak laki-laki itu". Mereka senang burung. Saya akan berikan burung-burung ini pada kucing-Kucing itu". Pastur terdiam untuk beberapa saat. "Berapa yang kamu inginkan untuk burung-burung itu, nak ?" "Huh? Mengapa, Anda tidak mungkin menginginkan burung-burung inikan, Pak. Mereka hanyalah burung biasa. Mereka tidak bisa bersiul merdu. Mereka bahkan tidak menarik !" "Berapa ?" Tanya pastur lagi. Si anak laki-laki itu mengukur kemampuan si pastur dan menilai si pastur mungkin gila, dan menjawab, "$10?" Pastur mengambil dari kantungnya dan mengeluarkan selembar uang kertas sepuluh dollar. Ia taruh di tangan anak laki-laki itu! Dalam sekejap, anak laki-laki itu pun menghilang.Si pastur memungut sangkar tersebut dan dengan lembut membawanya Ke ujung gang dimana ada sebuah pohon dan tempat yang berumput. Sambil meletakkan sangkar itu, ia membuka pintunya, dan dengan mengetuk jeruji sangkar pelan-pelan membujuk burung-burung itu keluar. Dan, itu tadi menjelaskan mengapa sangkar burung yang kosong ini di atas altar ini, lalu pastur mulai menceritakan cerita ini.

Suatu hari Iblis dan TUHAN sedang bercakap-cakap. Iblis baru saja datang dari Taman Firdaus, dan ia nampak rakus dan sedang membual. "Ya, tuan, saya baru saja melihat dunia penuh dengan orang-orang di bawah sana. Saya pasang perangkap, gunakan umpan yang saya tahu pasti mereka tak akan bisa menolak. Kenalah mereka semua!""Apa yg akan kau lakukan terhadap mereka ?" tanya TUHAN. Iblis menjawab, "Oh, saya akan bersenang-senang! Saya akan ajarkan mereka bagaimana kawin dan cerai, bagaimana saling membenci dan menganiaya satu sama lain, bagaimana saling minum-minum dan merokok dan menghujat. Saya akan ajarkan mereka bagaimana membuat senjata dan bom dan saling membunuh satu sama lain. Saya akan benar-benar senang!" "Dan apa yang akan kau lakukan terhadap mereka setelah engkau selesai dengan itu semua ?" tanya TUHAN. "Oh, saya akan bunuh mereka," Iblis menatap dengan bangga. "Berapa yang kau inginkan untuk mereka ?" tanya TUHAN. "Oh, kau tidak mungkin menginginkan orang-orang itu. Mereka tidaklah baik. Mengapa, kau ambil mereka dan mereka hanya akan membencimu. Mereka akan meludahimu, menghujatmu dan membunuhmu. Kau tidak mau orang-orang ini!" "Berapa ? Ia bertanya lagi. Iblis menatap TUHAN danmenyeringai, "Semua darah, airmata, dan jiwamu". TUHAN berkata, "Baiklah !" Lalu Ia membayar harganya, dengan darah, airmata dan jiwaNYA Pastur memungut sangkar tersebut. Ia membuka pintunya dan ia melangkah dari mimbar.

John 10:11 "I (Jesus) am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.

Where after death?

During the year end holiday, I visited my friend, Yenny, in Singapore. Yenny is the one who lost her fiance in an accident last year. Initially my visit purpose are to refresh/clean up my mind from a messy thought and get away from my routine. My visit was only three days, because I thought it's enough time to explore for a small country like Singapore, moreover I've been there before.

On the first day it was enjoyable, then come to a point that where Both Yenny and I sat at a restaurant having lunch, just she and me. After some conversation, finally she admitted that sometimes she still couldn't let go the incident.. and wonder where does he go to ? heaven or the opposite. She told me that she've already asked some of her friends (catholic believe), all of them answered her with don't know answer. (note: both yenny and her ex are budhist). This question was struck me.. and a bit confuse to answer her. I came to a dillema, what should I say.. If I answered that I don't know either, it means I failed to testify I as a Christian.. but if I answered going to hell, then it makes her sad, and felt Christianity is unfair, because in her perspective her fiance never did anything wrong that deserve him for going to hell. Instead of giving a direct answer, I finally explained her about what is Christian all about ? Why Jesus came to the world and died on the cross.. and People does not judge by deeds but by faith to Jesus Christ.. I don't know whether she understood what I was talking about, and just pray in my heart that she could digest my explanantion. At the end of the conversation, I said, that I am going to ask my pastor in the church for giving a direct answer, which I actually knew the answer. Then before I came back from Singapore, I had a chance to pray with her.. Initially she seemed hesitate to pray with me, because she don't know how to pray. Then I persuaded her that she didn't need a training or course in order to pray..

When I had come back, I consulted with an evangelist in our church, her statement slapped me, said I shouldn't doubt to give an answer for Yenny's question, if that is the truth.. the statement made me think, that I was only given a simple question, but failed to answer it.. how about if I was in a harder situation where I have to choose between my faith or career, partner or even die. This experience had give me a warning that I had to grow stronger not lukewarm in my faith.

Rev 3:16 - "So because you are luke warm - neither hot nor cold - I am about to spit you out of my mouth"

Our office.

In an aquarium.

Everything can change, but He always stay the same.

No body in this world can stop the time.. Unnotedly it is a new year again, we have reached the last quarter of the decade. Sometimes feel so scared, what have I done ? Is it made Him glad? One thing that makes me relief that, although everything in this world change and become worse, but Our Lord. He would not change, He still the Lord that loves us, care about us.. The matter is just us, do we have a faith in Him ? do we still believe in Him ? or we leave Him just because He hasn't answered our prayer ? or we upset and angry because everything happen out of our plans. Maybe we are just human, does not understand His Plan. But one thing, we should believe He has a perfect plan for us, in a perfect time. Happy New year... (although a bit too late hehe..)

Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future

Hati Natal.

by Anonymous

Natal adalah kasih
Kasih yang diberikan oleh Yesus kepada kia
untuk dibagikan kepada orang lain
Kasih yang membuat kita semua istimewa bagi-Nya

Natal adalah sukacita
Sukacita yang kita terima lewat anugrah-Nya
Sukacita yang didambakan
yang membawa kita masuk ke tahun yang baru

Natal adalah damai sejahtera
Damai yang timbul karena mengenal Yesus
Jaminan yang tersedia karena menyerahkan hidup kita
ke dalam tangan kasih-Nya

Closed up smile.

Click..

Action: Street Seller.

Arrived at HoS.

Kenangan Terindah.

(Free translation: The most wonderful nostalgia)

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang t'lah hilang darimu
yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun aku mampu tuk mengenangmu
darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

Reff.
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang t'lah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah.

This song is quite popular, since it was released by an Indonesia Boysband, Samson. The melody is good on my ears, this song also sang when we had a session during the camping. I thought this is a love and romantic song, which describe two lovers who are in love. A partial of my thought was correct but in opposite way. I just realised it when I read the text thoroughly (read: how lost i was, where have I been ^_^) I hope whoever is going through a lowest level in their love life can move on, I know it is hard. Ask for help if we cannot bear it by ourselves, pray to God cause He always there for us.. He always keep his promise, will bring the best one for Us. God Bless.. There always a hope.

Anak Monyet..

Another Sunday school song, which is the fave of my niece, Anne..
Here is the lyrics:

Anak monyet di atas pohon
Anak cacing di dalam tanah
Anak burung di dalam sangkar
Anak Tuhan di dalam gereja

Panjang muka namanya kuda
Panjang hidung namanya gajah
Panjang tangan itu pencuri
Panjang sabar itu Anak Tuhan..

Applause to the author who have created this wonderful song.. :)

Sitting at the hotel lobby..

Today at 10.21 PM I am sitting at hotel lobby in order to connect my compi to the virtual world.. Saturday night hmmm.. Currently I am in Surabaya, like usual fieldwork. :) Yeah work .. work and work.. a little sad actually, because my parent are coming to visit us (sis and bro including me) in Jakarta. In the meanwhile I was assigned to serve clients in Surabaya, what a bad timing.. :(

Hmmm, haven't got enough with the Lebaran holiday actually.. Nevertheles at least I got fun during the holiday. I went to camping !! The whole of my life I never experience sleep at a camp. It was Lingga, two month ago out of the blue called me, and ask me whether I want to join a camping event during the Lebaran holiday. At that time I thought I didn't have any plan yet, and why not. Then the day came, Lingga and I joint with a bunch of people who had registered to the event, took a bus and went to Rancaupas, Ciwidey, Bandung. After a long long journey, 5 hours ride, finally we arrived. But it didn't look good to me.. we were only provided three camp for around 160 people, which means around 53 people in a camp.. I felt like a refugee though.. at that time felt a bit regret hehe.. bcause having used to stay at hotel hihi (while doing a fieldwork) compare to slept on the floor..

One night passed with a bit insomnia and cold brrr.. still two more night to go.. foods were ok.. the committe has been working hard to prepare it for 160 people.. appreciate it.. bravo committee.. Then started to have a lot of fun, meeting people, hiking to "Kawah Putih",.. Singing, Games and many.. many.. more.. I started to like the holiday.. Then I said to Lingga, I was not regret to attend this event, although I was complaining at the first place hehe.. sorry I didn't mean it.. Then the other two nights were passed quickly and came to the end of the camping day.. Before we went home we still have time to visit Situpatenggang Lake. Thank's God, I got a wonderful holiday.. :)

Mejeng di Kawah Putih.