Inspirational Movies.

These two films are worthed to be watched. The stories are pretty simple and might happen in our real life. Although the films are not as sophisticated as Hollywood's, they are really inspirational. And maybe can change your way of thinking about this life and GOD.

Romans 10:17 "Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word of Christ."

A7+ SPA Academy 2008 - Group Photo.

Dinner Cruise with Philiphino mates.

My Bag and My Mind.

got this article from a friend, and it is really true that we sometimes put so much attention at our problem..

My Bag :
Setiap hari, sebagian besar dari kita membawa tas kerja dalam perjalanan pergi dan pulang kantor. Untuk kaum wanita, tas merupakan salah satu atribut penampilan yang penting. waktu libur 4 hari ini,cobalah kita bongkar semua isi tas kita. Ternyata sepertiga atau separuh dari isi tas itu adalah barang yang sudah tidak kita perlukan: struk ATM yang sudah buram, bungkus tissue, agenda atau buku yang jarang dibaca, sekumpulan uang logam, ballpoint yang sudah macet, kumpulan tagihan kartu kredit bulan-bulan lalu dsb dsb Meskipun mungkin ringan, tetapi barang-barang yang tidak diperlukan itu terus menambah berat tas kita ...sehingga kita harus membuang barang-barang tidak berguna yang membebani tas kita....

My Mind :

Mirip dengan my bag di atas, pikiran kita ( tanpa kita sadari ) selama ini sering kita bebani dengan hal-hal yang tidak perlu juga : penyesalan masa lalu, rasa kecewa, kejengkelan dan iri kepada rekan kerja lain, sikap egois dan kurang kooperatif, perasaan tidak puas atas kondisi yang terjadi, snobisme, obsesi-obsesi yang kurang realistis, konflik keluarga dsb dsb Pikiran-pikiran yang tidak perlu itu akan terus membebani perjalanan hidup kita, sehingga dampaknya, wajah akan kelihatan kurang bersinar, suntuk / jutek, punggung terasa berat karena pikiran berkorelasi dengan punggung ), stress, hidup kurang nyaman dan yang paling parah adalah kita akan selalu membenci hal-hal yang tidak sesuai dengan kemauan kita,dsb. Yang harus kita lakukan adalah sama dengan apa yang kita lakukan dengan my bag di atas, buanglah segala beban pikiran yang tidak ada manfaatnya itu. Percayalah, hidup Anda di hari berikutnya terasa jauuuuuhhhh lebih nyaman....Makanan akan terasa lebih enak.... Kita akan lebih jarang sakit..Bekerja menjadi lebih nyaman meskipun kita menghadapi rutinitas yang itu itu saja dan juga kita menghadapi orang-orang yang kadang membuat kita menjadi tidak betah untuk terus bekerja.. Ciptakan "POSITIF THINKING" disetiap pagi ketika kita bangun tidur,karena pikiran itu erat sekali kaitannya dengan fisik kita....Biarkan positif thingking itu bekerja di dalam diri kita hingga akhirnya,keindahan hari itu akan ditentukan oleh kita dan cara pandang kita dalam menghadapi dan menyelesaikan setiap masalah.....

He really knows.

Over the past couple of months I have been stressed out with work. So much that need to do, more than that I have no experience with the assignment that have been assigned to my team and me. The higher level management seems do not care and put attention to the project. The feeling that I have now is the same as when I was struggling with my assignments during my post graduate. Feel really tired, pesimistic, which I should not need to feel that way and have more trust on God. He always know what we are going through.

But over and over, I got so much encouragement from God. First, when I did my quiet time, the reading came out with Matthew 6:26 "Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?"

Second, I attended an office service the theme verse was Philipians 4:13 "I can do everything through him who gives me strength."

Third, I had a bible study group. At that time, we talk about David faced a Giant Goliath. During the discussion we make an assumption that Goliath is our struggle in our daily life. Finally we come to a conclusion, that God allow anything happen in our life is for our own good, base on the following verse Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose"

I was really amazed that God is really care with what we going through, and He knows everything that we needs. Looking ahead, I foresee there must be a lot pressure coming, knowing that the situation become more competitive and demanding. One thing that I need to always remember that God cares and really cares.

Allah Peduli (God cares).

by Jonathan Prawira.

Banyak perkara
Yang tak dapat kumengerti
Mengapakah harus terjadi
Di dalam kehidupan ini

Satu perkara
Yang kusimpan dalam hati
Tiada sesuatu kan terjadi
Tanpa Allah peduli

Reff:
Allah mengertiAllah peduli
Segala persoalan yang kita hadapi
Tak akan pernah dibiarkannya ku bergumul sendiri
Sebab Allah mengerti

Get down, get wet and get fun.

Debriefing - Sampoerna Team.

How To Dance In The Rain. (Anon)

I got this story from my church milist, just very touched by the story. I hope everyone who read this story may get inspired and could act like the elder gentlement in the story..

Here is the story goes:

It was a busy morning, about 8:30, when an elderly gentleman in his 80's, arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb.

He said he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 am. I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would be able to see him.

I saw him looking at his watch, and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound. On exam, it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound. While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had another doctor's appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry.

The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I inquired as to her health; he told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer's Disease. As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late.
He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now. I was surprised, and asked him, 'And you still go every morning, even though she doesn't know who you are'? He smiled as he patted my hand and said, 'She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is'. I had to hold back tears as he left; I had goose bumps on my arm, and thought, 'That is the kind of love I want in my life'.

True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be. With all the jokes and fun that are in e-mails, sometimes there is one that comes along that has an important message. This one I thought I could share with you. The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything they have. I hope you share this with someone you care about. I just did.

'Life isn't about how to survive the storm, But how to dance in the rain.'

You Are Special

Suatu hari seorang pembicara terkenal membuka seminarnya dengan cara yang unik. Sambil memegang uang pecahan Rp. 100.000,00, ia bertanya kepada hadirin, "Siapa yang mau uang ini?" Tampak banyak tangan diacungkan pertanda banyak minat. "Saya akan berikan ini kepada salah satu dari Anda sekalian, tapi sebelumnya perkenankanlah saya melakukan ini." Ia berdiri mendekati hadirin. Uang itu diremas-remas dengan tangannya sampai berlipat2. Lalu bertanya lagi, "Siapa yang masih mau uang ini?" Jumlah tangan yang teracung tak berkurang. "Baiklah," jawabnya, "Apa jadinya bila saya melakukan ini?" ujarnya sambil menjatuhkan uang itu ke lantai dan menginjak2nya dengan sepatunya. Meski masih utuh, kini uang itu jadi amat kotor dan tak mulus lagi."Nah, apakah sekarang masih ada yang berminat? "Tangan-tangan yang mengacung masih tetap banyak."Hadirin sekalian, Anda baru saja menghadapi sebuah pelajaran penting. Apapun yang terjadi dengan uang ini, anda masih berminat karena apa yang saya lakukan tidak akan mengurangi nilainya. Biarpun lecek dan kotor, uang itu tetap bernilai Rp. 100.000,00. Dalam kehidupan ini kita pernah beberapa kali terjatuh, terkoyak, dan berlepotan kotoran akibat keputusan yang kita buat dan situasi yang menerpa kita. Dalam kondisi seperti itu, kita merasa tak berharga, tak berarti. Padahal apapun yang telah dan akan terjadi, Anda tidak pernah akan kehilangan nilai di mata mereka yang mencintai Anda, terlebih di mata Tuhan.

Don't forget: U're Special. Happy easter !! He gave all He could give, so we can live.

1 Cor 15:3b "that Christ died for our sins.."

Learn How to Pray. (Anon)

I asked God to take away my pride
He said "No"
He said it's not for Him to take away
but it's for me to give up

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole
He said "No"
He said the child's spirit is whole
his life is fulfilling and his body is temporary

I asked God to give me patience
He said "No"
He said patience is by-product of tribulation
it is not granted but earned

I asked God to give me happiness
He said "No"
He said He will give me blessing happiness
is up to me

I asked God to take away my pain
He said "No"
He said I need pain to grow
and I will grow closer to Him in pain

I asked God to make my spirit grow
He said "No"
He said He will provide the path for me to grow
but it's my own decision to walk this path

I asked God to teach me to love others the way He loves us
He smiled and said "You finally get the right idea"

How can I know what God wants me to do?

Yeah sometimes quite frustrating about how.. after comtemplating and pray for sometimes but still don't get any indication of guidances and answers. Or we actually we've got the answers but we are too stuborn to follow the directions.

Maybe some of you have been gone through the same experiences can share your thought, suggestions, advice or ideas.. Any Inputs are welcome.

Mujizat itu Nyata.

by: Jonathan Prawira

Tak terbatas kuasa-Mu Tuhan
Semua dapat kau lakukan
Apa yang kelihatan mustahil bagiku
Itu sangat mungkin bagi-Mu

Reff:
Di saat ku tak berdaya
Kuasa-Mu yang sempurna
Ketika ku percaya
Mujizat itu nyata

Bukan karena kekuatan
Namun Roh-Mu ya Tuhan
Ketika ku berdoa
Mujizat itu nyata

Bridge:
Mujizat itu di dekat mulutku
Dan ku hidup oleh percaya

Life is like a box of chocolate.. (Forest Gump).

About one month ago one day in the afternoon, I got a chat invitation from my MSN messenger. It was from my Junior High School Friend. We haven't met each other for more than a decade, during the period we sent email to each other and then lost contact afterwards. Then that afternoon we began to make a contact again. She live in Bandung, married with one son. Then one week later, fortunately I got an assignment, which required me to travel to Bandung. Without thinking any longer, I used this opportunity to set an appointment to meet my old best friend. And then we met after about eleven years. Nothing change much with the appearance except she gained a bit weight and she weared headcapped. We talked about one hour, she told me about the life of some of our junior high friend. One was murdered three years ago, and one died because of giving birth difficulties recently, I was shocked hearing that news, which I never thought that would be happened with my friends. What I didn't understand how and why she was murdered. Yeah we never know what would happened to our very own life and close relative and friend. Only God know..

S'mua Baik.

By: Tommy Widodo & Budi

Dari semula
T'lah kau tetapkan
Hidupku dalam tangan-Mu
Dalam rencana-Mu Tuhan

Rencana indah
T'lah kau siapkan
Bagi masa depanku
Yang penuh harapan

Reff:
S'mua baik, S'mua baik
Apa yang t'lah kau perbuat di dalam hidupku
S'mua baik, S'mua baik
Kau jadikan hidupku berarti

To begin the year.

After having a ten days of year end holiday, I started to come to my office on 2nd January. That morning began with a hard rain, and when I woke up I did not feel like to work. With a very low motivation I took a bath and prepared to begin my working days. I took all of my stuff and put them in my car. With a full confident I did not do a final check then drove to the office. I arrived at 6.40. I thought it was still early, I had my breakfast and took an easy sleep for awhile. At 7.40 when I want to go upstairs and just realised I forgot to bring my laptop. Oh my.. how could I work without it. I decided to drive back home to take my laptop. I ended up with spending almost three hours back and forth to the office, caught in a bad traffic jam because it was a rainy day. Losing my energy to work normally, fed up with my carelessness. Start wondering it was a bad start for beginning of a year.

Regardless the bad start, I believed our life pathway is not determined by a good sign or bad sign. It is definitely depend on God. These days since the advent period, I was stroke by a verse (Romans 8:28) repetititvely. These past year I have been struggling with my faith. It seems that everything happened in my life was stagnant, does not make any progress at all. Yeah maybe people see on the surface that I quite succeed with my career, but the spiritual inside of me is falling down slowly. At a point, sometimes I was wondering, can I still trust God? or I have to stand up by my own feet? Then in one of the year end testimonial sessions a congregation member shared about his past until he found the Lord and brought him become an evangelist. He closed with the Romans 8:28 verse. That remind me with a long time ago sermon. A preacher illustrated that he was waiting in the airport to pick up one of his family member. The plane actually supposed has been arrived but he heard an announcement saying that the plane was delayed for two hours because of some technical issues. He waited and waited.. seems that the plane was not make any progress to arrive, but actually the airline officers were making effort to reach the destination. Finally after two hours past, the plane arrived and he met with the family member. God's work sometimes is like that he said. On the surface it seems nothing is happening, but in fact He is in progress getting it done. We just need to do our part and put our faith on Him.

With the reminder, my resolution for year 2008 may I put my faith more in HIM, trust HIM and act as I have received whatever I have asked for. Be joyfull in God in whatever circumstances.

Romans 10:17 "Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word of Christ."

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

Yeah a bit late to say that hehehe. Anyway hope everyone enjoyed their Christmas and New year holiday. The most important thing is really experience Christ present during the season.

Cheers, May God give us strength to go through year 2008.

Exploring a Submarine.

If you believe in GOD

If you have faith in God
If you believe
He will return
Follow the way that Jesus has come to teach you
And then you will see that the life can turn better.

REFRAIN
I will sing, I will sing what God came to teach us
That the way of reaching the heaven is to love, is to love
Is to love, to love the poor, the rich and the sinner
And everything that in this life is cherished by the Lord.
If God want, I will stop thinking about me
And so I will bide one´s time to worship Him.
I will be happy and with me everything that sings

Mengenal-Mu. (To know You, God)

Bila kubuka mataku,
dan lihat wajah-Mu...
kuterkagum...

Bila kulihat hidupku,
dan karya tangan-Mu...
kutersanjung....

Karna semua yang baik dalam hidupku..
itulah karya-Mu...
Kau bri kesempatan yang baru...

Reff :
Dan ku ingin mengenal-Mu Tuhan...
lebih dalam dari smua yang ku kenal...
Tiada kasih yang melebihi-Mu...
ku ada untuk menjadi penyembah-Mu....

Comment:
That was the song, which sang during our retreat, I was very touch with this song. Somehow made me think how well have I known God and realised have been very selfish all of the time.. always thinking about me, me and me.. what if I.. how about if I.. hardly think what God's plan for me. Whether what I've done is according to God's will.. Fortunate, I've realised and need to put thing into perspective.

Tea Walk group.

All about August.

Hmm actually nothing is special in August.. except yeah, my birthday in August.. and office busy season started in August.. just about it. However, I felt very blessed for this year August. Lately felt a bit disoriented, in the surface it seems everything are fine, my routine, activities hmm but just felt a bit lost.. Regardless the feeling, I think God knows what I need. I was introduced to a member of IES (International English Service), ibu Setiawati, who invited me to join "Connecting the Dots" seminar. The seminar is about to connect our past (bad and good) to our present condition. So as a pre-work assignment, we were required to list down all of the past event that have impact to our life at that time. Then during the seminar, a long with the talk we did an exersice to make a timeline through these listed event. At the end, we can see our draft autobiography, and somehow realised that all of the bad or good things happened actually for our own good.. yeah "God is good, all the time", said Don Moen. This seminar has drawn me back to focus.

As I mentioned before, we entered busy season since August. Although it's just started, I've felt so weary hehe.. then out of the blue, one of my friend's friend, Herlina asked me to join a tea walk event. Initially I was not so interested, but I agreed to go eventually.. hmm that was nice, meeting some new friends, experiencing the tea field and nature.. yeah nice... :)

Who Am I ?

This song was sang during the "Connecting the dots" Seminar, which I just attended these two days. I like this song once it was sang, it described the truth about us. Later will share about what the seminar all about.. Feel so amazed, inspired and blessed. Thank's to Ibu Setiawati who invited me to join the seminar.

Artist: Casting Crowns
Album : Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out throught the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

SPA Outing 2007 Part II - Bali

Romans 8:28.

I was cleaning up my inbox, and found a nice article. I received this email November 19, 2003 from my brother. I think although the story happened for long time ago, it is still relevant to share the story. Here it is:

As you read this, remember Romans 8: 28.. "And we know that in ALL things God works for the good of those who love Him and who are called according to His purpose." A man from Norfolk, VA called a local radio station to share this on Sep 11th, 2003. His Name was Robert Matthews. These are his words: "A few weeks before Sept 11th, my wife and I found out we were going to have our first child. She planned a trip out to California to visit her sister. On our way to the airport, we prayed that God would grant my wife a safe trip and be with her. Shortly after I said 'amen' we both heard a loud pop and the car shook violently. We had blown out a tire. I replaced the tireas quickly as I could, but we still missed her flight. Both very upset, we drove home. I received a call from my father who was retired FDNY. He asked what my wife's flight number was, but explained that we missed the flight. My father informed me that her flight was the one that crashed into the southern tower. I was too shocked to speak. My father also had more news for me; he was going to help. 'This is not something I can just sit by for, I have to do something.' I was concerned for his safety, of course, but more because he had never given his life to Christ. After a brief debate, I knew his mind was made up. Before he got off of The phone, he said, 'take good care of my grandchild.' Those were the last words I ever heard my father say; he died while helping in the rescue effort. My joy that my prayer of safety for my wife had been answered quickly became anger. Anger at God, at my father, and at myself. I had gone for nearly 2 years blaming God for taking my father away. My son would never know his grandfather, my father had never accepted Christ, and never got to say goodbye.

Then something happened. About 2 months ago, I was sitting at home with my wife and my son, when there was a knock on the door. I looked at my wife, but I could tell she wasn't expecting anyone. I opened the door to a couple with a small child. The man looked at me and asked if my father's name was Jake Matthews. I told him it was. He quickly grabbed my hand and said, 'I never got the chance to meet your father, but it is an honor to meet his son.' He explained to me that his wife had worked in the World Trade Center and had been caught inside after the attack. She was pregnant and had been caught under debris. He then explained that my father had been the one to find his wife and free her. My eyes welled up with tears as I thought of my father giving his life for people like this. He then said, 'there is something else you need to know.' his wife then told me that as my father worked to free her, she talked to him and lead him to Christ. I began sobbing at the news. Now I know that when I get to heaven, my father will be standing beside Jesus to welcome me, and that this family would be able to thank him themselves." When their baby boy was born, they named him Jacob Matthew in honor of the man who gave his life so mother and baby could live. This story should help us to realize two things: First, that though it has been two years since the attacks, we should never let it become a mere tragic memory. And second, but most important, God is always in control. We may not see the reason behind things, and we may never know this side of heaven, but God is ALWAYS in control.

What a such encouraging story...

Old McDonald has a farm.

About two weeks ago, with a bunch of sunday school students we visited dairy farm. Having our first experience to milking a cow.. what a fun experience mhoooo hehehe... see how is the milk being processed to variety of dairy product..

Hmmm an interesting place to get away...

Office - End of financial year.

I have passed another end of financial year of the firm. The time passed so fast, I have been in the firm for about two and half years now. Here are some updates of some events that I've been through inside and outside the firm:

• Then Firm's usual annual tradition is the performance result or promotion announcement. This year would be another blessing year, I am promoted as an Assistance Manager. Certainly there will be a significant salary increase, and abundance work would also follow. I tried to encourage myself to contribute as best as I can, and may His name glorify through my career. Sometimes career issue make me worry about how to manage a life balance.

• I was confirmed at the beginning of this month. In addition I have passed the Sunday School teacher lessons and officially allow to teach Sunday School students.. So far so good with the role, I manage to prepare all the stuff right before Sunday. Thank's to the Internet, which help me a lot in providing the material. However, there are still many things that need to improve.

• Our team will have an outing by the end of next month. We plan to go to Bali island. Hmm, have been six years since my last visit, I hope will get some fresh air and energy before the high season come. Looking forward for the outing.

Does it matter?

Last night we have a small chat within the office with other two collegues. The topic was brought up because of Andi was packing his bag and ready to go home when I passed by his desk. He's just bought some DVDs one of the title is "The tomb of Jesus". Then I asked him why did he choose the title ? Andi answered that because he read a lot of discussion re. this topic in the milis which he join. One of the discussion is whether Jesus's married and have his own family. Then another collegue - Melvin joint in the conversation said, that He would not bother about the life of Jesus, whether He was married or not with Mary Magdalene.. What does matter is the teaching of Jesus.. Hmm, I was disagree with Melvin. In my opinion all of part of Jesus life is really matter, which prove that He is GOD. However, yesterday I didn't make any arguments to encounter Melvin's statement. One of the reason maybe I am still lack of knowledge about this..

So feel free to put any comment on this topic.. Maybe I can get some inputs.

Samalona Island.

Ready to depart to ...

Devil's Trick.

Last night I went home on time, this is quite unusual hehe, since I always stayed at the office at least until 7.00 PM. One reason is I want to avoid the traffic jam, so it is better do something else in the office rather than sit in the car doing nothing. I have planned to visit my former office to obtain signature from my former employer for CISA certification application then attended the prayer session in the church.

Last night talk is about Matthew 4:1-11. According to the preacher these verse contain of two parts i.e. how devil try to persuade man become a sinner and how Jesus faced the temptation without being a sinner. For this session the preacher talked about the part one of these verses "How devil try to persuade man become a sinner".

First we looked at Mat 4:2-3 "After fasting forty days and forty nights, he was hungry. The tempter came to him and said. If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become bread." He explained Devil utilise our needs to tempt us. Other example for this case is Esau because he was hungry, he was willing to trade his birth rights to Jacob. He didn't think about the cause of his decision, he just thought about the fulfilment of his needs. We are human sometimes like that, so we are willing to do anything include sinned action to fulfil our needs.

Second Mat 4:5-6 "Then the devil took him to the holy city and had him stand on the highest point of the temple. "If you are the Son of God," he said, "throw yourself down. For it is written: "He will command his angels concerning you, and they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone." The preacher further explained that Devil use our knowledge of God's word to tempt us. Some people sometimes only quote a little part of the bible to make his action seems true. Hence, beware that we need to carefully interpret God's words.. beside the meaning we also need to know the context of the verses and how it is applied. Don't misuse it otherwise Devil will use it against us.

Third Mat 4:8-9 "Again, the devil took him to a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world and their splendor. "All this I will give you," he said, "if you will bow down and worship". Devil use our focus to tempt us. One example of this is David. He focussed on his desire to a beautiful woman, which drawn him to commit murder and adultery.

I was made aware by by these explanation.. I hope this could equipped me more in the future.

Reading books.

That is my niece, Clara's answer if everyone asked her about her hobby. She is only two years old, she has showed her interest to books. Although she cannot read, she know the content of every single of her books.. She owns almost a hundred books at home and continue to be added. Reading books is also what I have been doing since a few months ago, started to fill my sparetime with this hobby. I have read different kind of genres. Here they are:

• Betrayal by Randall Arthur. This book is a religious novel like Frank's. Different with Frank's story, this book talk about pattern of betrayal that often happens in the body of Christ or church community. Quite dramatical and worth to read.

• Undomestic goddess & Can you keep a secret. Both of them are chick lits, which written by Sophie Kinsela. These two books are good for light reading, relax and quite entertain. These books are good choices for your spare time.

• The curious incident of the dog in the night time by Mark Haddon. I found this book is quite different in the term of the story telling. The story is about a 15th years old kids, Christopher, with a kind of autism, found his neighbour's dog killed by a garden fork. He is encouraged by his teacher, to write abook about his investigation in finding the murder of the dog. According to book review in amazon - "This is the sort of book that could turn condescending, or exploitative, or overly sentimental, or grossly tasteless very easily, but Haddon navigates those dangers with a sureness of touch that is extremely rare among first-time novelists". Worth to read, if you want to taste a different type of reading.

• Digital Fortress by Dan Brown. I just started to read this book. I found Dan Brown is good at making fiction. Making connection among facts, which in fact actually they do not have any connections.. hehehe.. quite confusing... that's why his controversial book DAVINCI CODE is called novel, not true.

yeah, that's all for now. Looking forward to learn crafting for my sunday school session. Happy reading.

SPA outing 2007 Part I

Just about two weeks ago, as our group tradition we conducted an outing for the first time in year 2007. The season started to lowered a bit. Just an opportunity to bound together and built up a solid team work. Every body have fun, can't wait for the next outing..

Closed up pose.

Lage Mejeng.

SPA team.

Outing Site.

Move on!

Have been struggled to let go a "thing" that I obsessed about, although I knew it was the will of God I couldn't make it mine. I meant actually I could sense God's answer was very clear, but I was so stubborn to think there maybe a chance to pursue it. Until the end of last month ...

Melvin (an office collegue) and I were very lucky, being chosen by the firm to attend a T3 (training the trainers) for BPF (Business Process Fundamental) course by Global Learning and education team in Hongkong. The purpose of the training is to communicate all of the course material to the participants, which then the participants can prepare their own course in their home countries. I met other participants from several of our region offices, which was very interesting. I experienced this before, when I attended SPA academy one and half year ago in Bangkok. However, this training was slightly different with the former one. The participants in this course were much lesser than the SPA academy's participants, which gave more chance to know others better.

Besides training, We had chances to visit some interesting place in Hongkong such as Disney's land and several shopping places like Mongkok, Wanchai and Causeway bay. I spent some hundreds dollar shopping for gift and myself. Overall was very enjoyable. This visit has opened my eyes, that this world still has many things that need to be explored. I should not distress myself with my "failure obsession". Unbelievable I have been sadden with it for more than one year, what a waste of time. I was so stubborn and hard hearted to obey God's guidance. I realised that I should move on and don't stuck myself with my struggle. I hope this is my turning point to change and have more reliance on God rather than rely on my own strength and understanding.

BPF T3 Participants & Instructors.

Training..

Met a new buddy.

Arrived at Disneyland.

Causeway Bay, HK.

Renungan mengenai sangkar burung.

I got this from a milist, maybe some of you have read it before. However, I thought it is nice for a reminder. Hope you get the essence of the stor-e... Here it goes...

Suatu masa, ada seorang pria bernama George Thomas, seorang pastur di sebuah kota kecil di New England. Pada suatu Minggu pagi, hari Paskah, ia tiba di gereja dengan membawa sangkar burung yg sudah karatan dan penyok-penyok, dan meletakannya di altar. Orang-orang pada keheranan dan, seolah-olah menangkap rasa penasaran orang-orang, Pastur Thomas mulai bicara...."

Saya sedang berjalan-jalan sekeliling kota kemarindan melihat seorang anak laki-laki berjalan mendekati saya sambilmengayun-ayunkan sangkar burung ini. Di dasar sangkar ada tiga burung kecil dan liar,menggigil karena kedinginan dan ketakutan. Saya stop anak laki-laki itu dan saya tanyakan,"Ada apa di sangkar itu, nak ?" "Hanya beberapa burung biasa" jawabnya. "Apa yg akan kau lakukan pada mereka ?" tanya saya. "Bawa pulang ke rumah dan menggoda mereka," jawabnya. "Saya akan menggoda mereka dan mencabuti bulu-bulu mereka supaya mereka saling berkelahi. Saya pasti akan menikmati saat itu". "Tapi kamu nanti akan jadi bosan dengan burung-burung itu cepat atau lambat. Lantas apa yang akan kamu kerjakan ?" "Oh, saya kan punya beberapa kucing," kata anak laki-laki itu". Mereka senang burung. Saya akan berikan burung-burung ini pada kucing-Kucing itu". Pastur terdiam untuk beberapa saat. "Berapa yang kamu inginkan untuk burung-burung itu, nak ?" "Huh? Mengapa, Anda tidak mungkin menginginkan burung-burung inikan, Pak. Mereka hanyalah burung biasa. Mereka tidak bisa bersiul merdu. Mereka bahkan tidak menarik !" "Berapa ?" Tanya pastur lagi. Si anak laki-laki itu mengukur kemampuan si pastur dan menilai si pastur mungkin gila, dan menjawab, "$10?" Pastur mengambil dari kantungnya dan mengeluarkan selembar uang kertas sepuluh dollar. Ia taruh di tangan anak laki-laki itu! Dalam sekejap, anak laki-laki itu pun menghilang.Si pastur memungut sangkar tersebut dan dengan lembut membawanya Ke ujung gang dimana ada sebuah pohon dan tempat yang berumput. Sambil meletakkan sangkar itu, ia membuka pintunya, dan dengan mengetuk jeruji sangkar pelan-pelan membujuk burung-burung itu keluar. Dan, itu tadi menjelaskan mengapa sangkar burung yang kosong ini di atas altar ini, lalu pastur mulai menceritakan cerita ini.

Suatu hari Iblis dan TUHAN sedang bercakap-cakap. Iblis baru saja datang dari Taman Firdaus, dan ia nampak rakus dan sedang membual. "Ya, tuan, saya baru saja melihat dunia penuh dengan orang-orang di bawah sana. Saya pasang perangkap, gunakan umpan yang saya tahu pasti mereka tak akan bisa menolak. Kenalah mereka semua!""Apa yg akan kau lakukan terhadap mereka ?" tanya TUHAN. Iblis menjawab, "Oh, saya akan bersenang-senang! Saya akan ajarkan mereka bagaimana kawin dan cerai, bagaimana saling membenci dan menganiaya satu sama lain, bagaimana saling minum-minum dan merokok dan menghujat. Saya akan ajarkan mereka bagaimana membuat senjata dan bom dan saling membunuh satu sama lain. Saya akan benar-benar senang!" "Dan apa yang akan kau lakukan terhadap mereka setelah engkau selesai dengan itu semua ?" tanya TUHAN. "Oh, saya akan bunuh mereka," Iblis menatap dengan bangga. "Berapa yang kau inginkan untuk mereka ?" tanya TUHAN. "Oh, kau tidak mungkin menginginkan orang-orang itu. Mereka tidaklah baik. Mengapa, kau ambil mereka dan mereka hanya akan membencimu. Mereka akan meludahimu, menghujatmu dan membunuhmu. Kau tidak mau orang-orang ini!" "Berapa ? Ia bertanya lagi. Iblis menatap TUHAN danmenyeringai, "Semua darah, airmata, dan jiwamu". TUHAN berkata, "Baiklah !" Lalu Ia membayar harganya, dengan darah, airmata dan jiwaNYA Pastur memungut sangkar tersebut. Ia membuka pintunya dan ia melangkah dari mimbar.

John 10:11 "I (Jesus) am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.

Where after death?

During the year end holiday, I visited my friend, Yenny, in Singapore. Yenny is the one who lost her fiance in an accident last year. Initially my visit purpose are to refresh/clean up my mind from a messy thought and get away from my routine. My visit was only three days, because I thought it's enough time to explore for a small country like Singapore, moreover I've been there before.

On the first day it was enjoyable, then come to a point that where Both Yenny and I sat at a restaurant having lunch, just she and me. After some conversation, finally she admitted that sometimes she still couldn't let go the incident.. and wonder where does he go to ? heaven or the opposite. She told me that she've already asked some of her friends (catholic believe), all of them answered her with don't know answer. (note: both yenny and her ex are budhist). This question was struck me.. and a bit confuse to answer her. I came to a dillema, what should I say.. If I answered that I don't know either, it means I failed to testify I as a Christian.. but if I answered going to hell, then it makes her sad, and felt Christianity is unfair, because in her perspective her fiance never did anything wrong that deserve him for going to hell. Instead of giving a direct answer, I finally explained her about what is Christian all about ? Why Jesus came to the world and died on the cross.. and People does not judge by deeds but by faith to Jesus Christ.. I don't know whether she understood what I was talking about, and just pray in my heart that she could digest my explanantion. At the end of the conversation, I said, that I am going to ask my pastor in the church for giving a direct answer, which I actually knew the answer. Then before I came back from Singapore, I had a chance to pray with her.. Initially she seemed hesitate to pray with me, because she don't know how to pray. Then I persuaded her that she didn't need a training or course in order to pray..

When I had come back, I consulted with an evangelist in our church, her statement slapped me, said I shouldn't doubt to give an answer for Yenny's question, if that is the truth.. the statement made me think, that I was only given a simple question, but failed to answer it.. how about if I was in a harder situation where I have to choose between my faith or career, partner or even die. This experience had give me a warning that I had to grow stronger not lukewarm in my faith.

Rev 3:16 - "So because you are luke warm - neither hot nor cold - I am about to spit you out of my mouth"

Our office.

In an aquarium.

Everything can change, but He always stay the same.

No body in this world can stop the time.. Unnotedly it is a new year again, we have reached the last quarter of the decade. Sometimes feel so scared, what have I done ? Is it made Him glad? One thing that makes me relief that, although everything in this world change and become worse, but Our Lord. He would not change, He still the Lord that loves us, care about us.. The matter is just us, do we have a faith in Him ? do we still believe in Him ? or we leave Him just because He hasn't answered our prayer ? or we upset and angry because everything happen out of our plans. Maybe we are just human, does not understand His Plan. But one thing, we should believe He has a perfect plan for us, in a perfect time. Happy New year... (although a bit too late hehe..)

Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future

Hati Natal.

by Anonymous

Natal adalah kasih
Kasih yang diberikan oleh Yesus kepada kia
untuk dibagikan kepada orang lain
Kasih yang membuat kita semua istimewa bagi-Nya

Natal adalah sukacita
Sukacita yang kita terima lewat anugrah-Nya
Sukacita yang didambakan
yang membawa kita masuk ke tahun yang baru

Natal adalah damai sejahtera
Damai yang timbul karena mengenal Yesus
Jaminan yang tersedia karena menyerahkan hidup kita
ke dalam tangan kasih-Nya

Closed up smile.

Click..

Action: Street Seller.

Arrived at HoS.

Kenangan Terindah.

(Free translation: The most wonderful nostalgia)

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang t'lah hilang darimu
yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun aku mampu tuk mengenangmu
darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

Reff.
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang t'lah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah.

This song is quite popular, since it was released by an Indonesia Boysband, Samson. The melody is good on my ears, this song also sang when we had a session during the camping. I thought this is a love and romantic song, which describe two lovers who are in love. A partial of my thought was correct but in opposite way. I just realised it when I read the text thoroughly (read: how lost i was, where have I been ^_^) I hope whoever is going through a lowest level in their love life can move on, I know it is hard. Ask for help if we cannot bear it by ourselves, pray to God cause He always there for us.. He always keep his promise, will bring the best one for Us. God Bless.. There always a hope.

Anak Monyet..

Another Sunday school song, which is the fave of my niece, Anne..
Here is the lyrics:

Anak monyet di atas pohon
Anak cacing di dalam tanah
Anak burung di dalam sangkar
Anak Tuhan di dalam gereja

Panjang muka namanya kuda
Panjang hidung namanya gajah
Panjang tangan itu pencuri
Panjang sabar itu Anak Tuhan..

Applause to the author who have created this wonderful song.. :)

Sitting at the hotel lobby..

Today at 10.21 PM I am sitting at hotel lobby in order to connect my compi to the virtual world.. Saturday night hmmm.. Currently I am in Surabaya, like usual fieldwork. :) Yeah work .. work and work.. a little sad actually, because my parent are coming to visit us (sis and bro including me) in Jakarta. In the meanwhile I was assigned to serve clients in Surabaya, what a bad timing.. :(

Hmmm, haven't got enough with the Lebaran holiday actually.. Nevertheles at least I got fun during the holiday. I went to camping !! The whole of my life I never experience sleep at a camp. It was Lingga, two month ago out of the blue called me, and ask me whether I want to join a camping event during the Lebaran holiday. At that time I thought I didn't have any plan yet, and why not. Then the day came, Lingga and I joint with a bunch of people who had registered to the event, took a bus and went to Rancaupas, Ciwidey, Bandung. After a long long journey, 5 hours ride, finally we arrived. But it didn't look good to me.. we were only provided three camp for around 160 people, which means around 53 people in a camp.. I felt like a refugee though.. at that time felt a bit regret hehe.. bcause having used to stay at hotel hihi (while doing a fieldwork) compare to slept on the floor..

One night passed with a bit insomnia and cold brrr.. still two more night to go.. foods were ok.. the committe has been working hard to prepare it for 160 people.. appreciate it.. bravo committee.. Then started to have a lot of fun, meeting people, hiking to "Kawah Putih",.. Singing, Games and many.. many.. more.. I started to like the holiday.. Then I said to Lingga, I was not regret to attend this event, although I was complaining at the first place hehe.. sorry I didn't mean it.. Then the other two nights were passed quickly and came to the end of the camping day.. Before we went home we still have time to visit Situpatenggang Lake. Thank's God, I got a wonderful holiday.. :)

Mejeng di Kawah Putih.

go.. camping.. go..

Sunday School.

Although I have travelled a lot lately, I try to manage my time to bring my niece to sunday school. Hmm, I learnt some sunday school songs and found those songs are very interesting hehe.. Here is one of the lyrics:

KingKong badannya besar
tapi kakinya pendek
Lebih aneh binatang bebek
lehernya panjang kaki pendek

Alleluya.. Tuhan Maha Kuasa
Alleluya.. Tuhan Maha Kuasa

Tuhan membimbing langkah demi langkah.

(by Anonymous)

Jangan memandang kepada besarnya kebutuhan kita

Pandanglah kepada kebesaran-Nya

Keadaan kita seringkali menjadi penghalang

untuk melihat kemampuan Tuhan

Oleh karenanya jangan kita mengarahkan mata kita

kepada keadaan kita

Iblis senantiasa berusaha memanfaatkan keadaan kita

untuk mengalahkan kita dan menyalahkan firman Tuhan

Sesungguhnya kemenangan terletak pada kesetiaan kita

dalam memandang kebesaran Tuhan dan kemampuan-Nya

Ia telah berjanji untuk membimbing kita langkah demi langkah

Tidak sekaligus, namun ... langkah demi langkah ...

Dan setiap langkah, merupakan suatu mujizat!

"Prophet" by Frank again.

Lately felt really fed up with all of the routine, work and work and work... Then after the sunday school last week, I just passed the church library and got an idea to borrow a book, that can give my mind a relieve from thinking about my work stuff.. and flip around and ...ta..da.. I found another book from Frank, the title is "Prophet". I really enjoyed to read Frank's novels.. from the previous experience with "this present darkness" and "piercing the darkness". and I decided to borrow this book..

Last Sunday I've just finished the book. The story is a bit different with the first two it, this is more real, I think it's very common to happen in our life, politics, telling lie - covering truth, and ambition. This book is worth to be read. Please refer to this link for the story summary http://www.gnpcb.org/product/1581345267 Happy Readinggg !!!

A new look.

Felt a bit bored about the look of my blog. So I changed the template and now look like this. Ya just wanna refresh.. :) In fact I also want to restore the whole of my heart and energy, so I can left those awkward feeling behind and move on towards a better life..

Clara and Coala.

which one is cuter ?

My birthday gift.

The same as last year I didn't have chance to bother about my birthday, because I was on the way from my home town to Jakarta. Then yesterday I just received a bonus from office. Hmm, although my birthday was ten days ago, I felt like got a birthday gift hehe.. the office give away two millions rups voucher, which we can choose one of three options from panorama, carefour or sogo.

Apart from that I am very grateful to God for this year. I feel very blessed. One month before my birthday I've already got my present actually hehe.. the first one I was being double promoted, then got my performance bonus. The second one I passed the bloody CISA exam. During this time I think I can't ask for more, these two are already enough for me. Then yesterday got the third one hehe. And now somehow I began to worry, I remembered my first writing about "comfort vs growth". Wondering maybe I need to be aware of my life balance.. I've tried hard to maintain the work activities with my ministry in church. Hopefully I can maintain it well..

August 2006.

The same as last year, I spent most of my days in August at Chevron corporation, one of our firm audit client. I thought I have mentioned Chevron, which formerly named Caltex, is a oil mining company in Rumbai, Riau. The field work was enjoyable, all of my team member performed their work so efficient with a good quality of documentation. Two thumb up for all of you (Amel, Wisnu and Ferry). May be this year is the second year for all of us, we've already had the what in the firm we usually called "CAKE" about the client. This term is stand for cummulative auditing knowledge and experience. Moreover, from the client side, they also have improved a lot in term of how they control their business process, so most of their work have been documented properly. Hence, aside from work we still had time to having fun hehe.. hunting for durian, shopping in mals, watching movie and photo taking session. Please refer to pics below.. :)

I came back from Rumbai last week. What a shock when the first day I went to office at 5.40 am from home and arrive at Mampang at 6.20 am, but guess what I arrived at the office around 7.15 am. Had to spent around one hour to travel such 2-3 km distance.. The reason behind that is the government is building bus ways in all of the main streets in Jakarta. Mainly the purpose of the busway is to reduce traffic jam. Government is trying hard to improve the public transport, in order to persuade people to travel public transport, but I doubted it will succeed, let's hope.

Then I got another shocking news, my english instructor while I was preparing my EAP (english academic preparation) at IALF before departing to Australian commited a crime. He was arrested by Central Jakarta Police in the beginning of August. Actually this news has flown around in the alumni mailing list three weeks ago, but I never pay too much attention to this mailing list, and just known the new after a friend told me about this news. Just can't believed what I read in the news, I never thought this could happenned. He was such a respectable man, smart and I admited a bit sceptic, but unbelievable he could commit such crime - just don't want to mentioned what kind of crime. During my way home last night, I kept thinking life is always unpredictable, we can only see people's condition from the surface, but we never know what deep inside. People are correct, when they said the phrase, "don't judge the book by its cover".

Mess hall for lunch.

Chevron's main office.

Field work at Chevron.

I've Passed.

Finally the CISA exam result has come out. During the waiting period, it made me nuts. Because at the first time I thought it would come out only three weeks after the exam date, but I got it wrong. Then my friend told me that ISACA usually would announce the result aroung 6 weeks to 8 weeks. And yesterday, finally the result came out. I knew it because Amel (one of office collegues) called me, while I was at client's site in Surabaya. However, I could not checked my result due to I couldn't access to the Internet at client's site that made me more uneasy. Because I had been waiting for weeks, and when the result eventually come out I cannot check it. Until the lunch break I text my bro to check for me, I gave him my email id and password. During that period me, I was very nervous. Then after a few minutes, I got his reply and said I passed.. what a relieve.. Thank's God. This exam has turned me upside down, studied while working hmmm, I never think that I could do it. Once again, thank's God that He always strengthen me during the hard time, He always faithful to His children. And also thank you to Kees, my big boss, who is so dedicated to guide and teach us during the exam preparation. and big thank's too to family, friends and collegues who always encourage me to pass through this exam. No words can describe all of the support that pour at me.. Once again thank you all..

Systems & Process Assurance Team - New Poster

Just want to show off our team new poster. ^_^

Untitled.

Currently our office is entering a new financial year. Like every year by the end of each financial year management publish promotion list. Everybody at our department got promoted, though couple of them did not really satisfy with the rating result. Fyi, the rating would determine how much bonus you would get. Yeah, I believed management has considered deeply before they marked the rating. For my rating, I definitely don't have anything to complain. At the first place, I don't put too much expectation what could I get physically (read: salary), what I really care is what lessons I have learnt during the past one year. As I wrote one year ago, everything must have its time (Ecclesiates 3:11 "God has made everything fit beautifully in its appropriate time,but he has also placed ignorance in the human heartso that people cannot discover what God has ordained,from the beginning to the end of their lives"). I think if we are ready, He will give us what we really need.

In this month, there is another person resign our office, Reggie. Reggie left for pursuing higher education at York University, Toronto. During her last moment at our office she felt somewhat in between exciting and sad. Exciting, because she is going to go abroad and definitely will get new great experiences, and on the other hand sad because leaving us. During the past year we grew in one quite solid team. I also can feel that our team is a bit different compare to others that I had before. The people here are low profile and almost no boundary between us, even with our boss. However, I said to Reggie, she definitely has made a right decision. It is not everybody can experience higher education outside our home country, she will find many new things that she never had before. I am kind of miss my time when I was in Sydney.. double finger cross Reggie.

The World Greatest – R.Kelly

The following song was sang when we had update training last month. This song was introduced by Melvin. He mentioned that may be this song will help to boost our spirit a little bit if we are in a down condition. At that time I listened the music and lyrics and found this song is not bad, and sound nice to my ear. Yeah, this song at least tell us that we are at least something and may be we should proud of our selves whoever we are. However, we need to remember we are here and exist is because of HIM, only by HIM and through HIM we are save...

Lyrics:

I am a mountain, I am a tall tree, oh
I am a swift wind sweepin' the country
I am a river down in the valley,
oh I am a vision and I can see clearly

Refrain:
If anybody asks you who I am
Just stand up tall
Look 'em in the face and say

I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey, I made it I'm the world's greatest
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my back's against the ropes
I can feel it I'm the world's greatest

I am a giant, I am an eagle, oh
I am a lion, down in the jungle
I am a marchin' band, I am the people, oh
I am a helping hand, I am a hero

back to refrain

In the ring of life I'll reign love
And the world will notice a king/queen
When all is darkest, I'll shine a light
And use a success you'll find in me

back to refrain

Last shot.

Get wet, get fun.

Ready to launch.

Just Arrived.

More than anything.

Just want to share a lyric from one of the songs that we sang in the church anniversary celebration. The lyric is very simple, but very meaningful. Hope anybody who read it, will get the essence of the message too.

God loves people more than anything
God loves people more than anything
More than anything He wants to give
He'd rather die than let them go
God loves people more than anything

*connectedthinking.

Our team is trying to make a new poster, which reflected the whole team member for replacing current one. The theme for the poster is the same as our firm's motto i.e. "*connectedthinking". In order to do that, each of the members need to modify their pictures, so the pictures would really reflect the theme. I come out with the above picture. :)

Gado-gado.

is refer to a kind of Indonesian food, which consist of mixed vegetable and peanut sauce. Indonesian people usually use this phrase for refering something that heterogenous. I also use this phrase for my writing's title to refer to what I am going to write right now. There have been various things happenned the past few weeks.

• About two weeks ago once again Indonesia was hit by another catastrope. Several places in central java was shaken by a approx. 5.7 SR earth quake during 57 second. Based on the report from television news the death toll reached more than 5000 people. Just before the disaster, a lot of effort has been put to evacuate people from Merapi Mount eruption, but nature said different. What puzzle me was the timing of the disaster, it could be said just one or two days after the Ascensions day, the last two big catastrope i.e. Aceh Tsunami and Nias earthquake happened just one day after christmas and easter day respectively. Just trying to understand what message that God really want to put through for Indonesia or all of these just need to happen that's all.
• Last week was our church 61st anniversary. The committee planned to have a massive youth choralle which would be consist of 250 young people from several our church branches, but surprise there were almost 350 people turned up, including me. We only had twice combined practice including the one right before the anniversary celebration service. It was really amazing we really sang well during the service. The congregation was really astonished with the performance, all of us could feel the spirit of the theme this year "Shine for Jesus". I hope each of us could really understand the meaning of the theme, hence we can apply it to our every day life. For details of the event and pictures please refer to the folowing link http://youth-gky.blogspot.com/2006/06/kesan-dari-bawah-podium.html
• Finally, last saturday I attended the CISA exam. During the past six months I tried very hard to manage my time for study. It was really hard to study while working full time, especially if the job nature such auditing most of the time is very time consuming. Actually the preparation effort was not only come from me and other candidates, but also our Boss, Kees, who once a week conducted CISA review class during the past six months. Honestly, I did not want to let him down, because he has already sacrificed his out of office hour for only preparing us to pass the exam. I am very grateful that have a great boss like Him. Then about the exam result would come out about three weeks after the exam day, it would be confirmed by email. At the present I don't want to speculate about my exam outcome, I just only want to tell myself that I have put as many efforts that I could for passing the exam, let God do the rest.
• Time really goes so fast now we are in the mid of year 2006, I just felt that we just celebrate the new year yesterday. The first lesson that I learnt the past six months was that acceptance for something that we can't achieve. Sometimes we need to lay back a bit to think about the essence of our failure and disappoinment, there maybe a way for our future improvement. Another thing is commitment for ministry. The past one year I have struggled to commit for a ministry in church. I afraid that I can't fulfil my ministry responsibility because of my time consuming job. After a long contemplating, I think I should try, coz we don't know we can and can't do it if we do not try. Then since last week I registered myself as a sunday school teacher assistant. I hope this ministry would be useful for myself in the future.

Ok, that's all for now. Wanna to go home to watch football match hehe.. FIFA World Cup.

Cramming.

Gosh.. the time goes so fast. The exam day is coming closer and closer. Have taken one week annual leave to revisit the whole material again, but I start to forget some of the details, uh so frustated. Next week is the only chance for catch up and prepare, hopefully all of my effort will bring a good outcome.

An ordinary story in life.

Last saturday was a farewell bbq for my collegues Johan and Yenny. Both of them decided to move to PwC Singapore. It is maybe a usual event in our daily life, where there is a meeting, there will be a farewell. In this condition our office definitely lose two talented staff, but this may be a new journey, a new chapter for both Yenny and Johan.

Our farewell party begun with having bbq like last time and continue with watching a debut of "SPA movie", which created by Wisnu. The movie was very touching, it reminded us with the togetherness that we had since we joint the team, messages from staff for Both Yenny and Johan and vice versa. The party was ended by a speech from our leader, Kees. I was impressed by his speech, which basically means people's live is moving forward, maybe sometimes we are doubt to go or not go, indeed we never know if we don't try. Then lastly we took our last picture. Good Luck and Bon Voyage for Johan and Yenny, till we meet again, hehe Singapore just one and hour flight from Jakarta.. :)

Outing committee.

Back to the real world.

Exhausted Soldiers.

Ready to fight.

Arrived at Gunung Putri

Updates.

• First of all just want to say "happy easter", may Jesus resurrection raise up a new spirit for us to share love with others.

• Just had a retret with a group who call themselves as "Sant'Egidio" Community. This is one of a catholic church community, which started by a group of students in 1968, Roma. The mission of this group is to help those, who are poor and unfortunate. There have been a lot of actvities that initiated by this group, please refer to http://www.santegidio.org. In Indonesia this group was begun about 12 years ago. One of my friend joint this group and have been very inspired to make the world better. Overall I quite impressed with the mission and what have been done by this group of people. Maybe I will join them whenever I have a spare time.

• Yenny is back. I can understand with the struggle she go through, but thank's God she is getting better. However, I heard that she is going to resign from our office for several reason. I just can wish all the best for her decision.

BBQ together.

Pinky.

Girls group.

Novels by Frank.

Bro bought couple of novels, which is written by Frank E. Peretti, i.e This present of darkness and Piercing the darkness. At the beginning I was not too interested to read these books. I thought these novels would be quite similar with other ordinary thriller stories. But then, I felt bored nothing to do at that moment, I saw the books laid at the TV desk. I reached one of them and started to read... one page has passed... nothing special... until several pages, the real content of the book was introduced slowly but sure.. then I couldn't stop.. felt curious what happened next with the story... After finished with the first one, then I continued to read another one. Both of them are really great, and so real and easy to follow. Mainly these books telling about the spiritual warfare around our real life.. I was pulled into a spiritual world and was witnessing the warfare going on, which something that I never aware of. Regardless whether the story is true or not, these books gave a broad and clear picture about the spiritual realm, and how the angels do their works. I really recommend others to read these books, you'll never regret it. I bet.

Reference:

http://www.booksamillion.com/ncom/books?AID=32499&PID=2477&isbn=1581342144

Think About His Love

Think about His love
Think about His goodness
Think about His grace
That's brought us through.

For as high as the heavens above
So great is the measure of our Father's love
Great is the measure of our Father's love.

How could I forget His love?
How could I forget His mercy?
He satisfies, He satisfies,
He satisfies my desires.
Great is the measure of our Father's love.

Comment:
This morning when I drove to my office, as ussual I turned on the radio, then this song came out from the radio speaker. This song has brought back my concentration to the road, as my mind worked hard thinking about many many things, struggles, human pathetic life. This song has reminded me, for whatever our condition, we still have His love. His love will comfort us whenever we are down. Always think about His love.

Chaos or Tragedy ?

The past few weeks has passed with a bit plain, until about two weeks ago one of my best friend (Mega) from campus sent me a sms at midnight said that an accident killed my friend (John) on the way he went home from his office. I just can't believed it that he has passed away, because just one hour before the accidence he just posted an email to our alumni miling list. I have known him since I was in the third semester of my bachelor degree. We worked together as teaching assistant for a software laboratory at our campus. I also know his fiancee (yenny) well, because we work at the same office. John was known as a such caring, nice and smart person. I can't imagine how shock and sad his family, friends and fiancee when they heard this bad news.

Just a few days ago before the accident, I was thinking that Yenny has a perfect life. I envied her. She is smart, has a good career, has a great fiancee, in short she has everything that a girl dream on. They have built relationship for five years, have bought a house mortgage, lease a car and plan to get married by June this year. All of these has gone when this accidence happened. When I received the news, I asked in my heart over and over why this happened especially when everything seems so perfect? Don't God has eyes or heart in ruling this world. I know God has his own purpose and objective when allowing something happened to us, this maybe go beyond our thought and mind.

Until now Yenny is still absence for work. I can understand how her feeling is, this accidence has given a big grief into her life history. I really eager to ease a litle of her pain but don't know how to do it. I don't have courage to call or even sms her, afraid if my call or sms can remind her to John. I just can pray that God can make her understand and strength after this tragedy.

Aside from the grief and sadness of this tragedy, this accident also reminded me that we, humans are so small and powerless. Our everything can disappear in just a second. I asked myself am I ready if that happen to me? Oh Lord, please give us Your Strength. Amin.